Tuesday, August 03, 2004

fucked up day

enrollment + maccoms + ross bitching out on me + unfinished assignment + people who don't care + people na saksakan ng labo = one really screwed up tiring day.

hay. so this is the effect of too much stress due to college life. the thing is i can't give up now coz...there's a dept exam and a busines case to be submitted tomorrow. talk about hell week. gawsh.

then there's ross who bitched out on me this afternoon. you know what, i did a fucking favor for you and what do you do? bitch out on me. wala man lang thank you kahit man lang sa effort. alam mo, i never thought you'd be this irrational. really. i know hectic for you but hey take a fucking look around you are not alone. i just wish you'd stop closing in on yourself and bitch out on other people coz it sucks. i know you're pissed at me...well sorry i'm only human and newsflash: i do make mistakes. probably you're even annoyed at the fact that pearl sided with me well i'm glad coz you know what, this time you're wrong. this time you crossed the fucking line. i am sick and tired with being patient with your bitchyness. i'm sorry i'm not as intelligent as you are and not as great a programer as you are but hey..i'm only human. i hope you'd stop being so insensitive to other people's feelings when you claim that you care too much. ross hindi lang ikaw yung pagod. hindi lang ikaw yung nasestress out dito. sana marealize mo yun. and unlike you, mas madali kaming maggive up kase we aren't as strong as you are. i see a lot of determination in you na we don't have..so sana wag mo kami ibring down sa mga okray mo kase it hurts. it fucking hurts. if you're sensitive enough then sana wag ka ganyan. if you truly care then you wouldn't hurt us with your okray words. pero hinde e. everyone says na masanay ka na dun. and it sucks coz parang everyone accepts the fact na ganyan ka talaga..like wala ka nang hope magbago. tangina i hate it kase hindi nila alam kung ganu kasakit yung mga salita mo minsan.

i'm tired. we all are. pero sana wag na natin dagdagan yung tension by being bitchy to each other. all i want is to see you guys okay..ayoko na ng away. kayo na nga lang yung kaligayahan ko e, tapos ganito pa..ang lungkot.

ayun. wala lang. thoughts lang...

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