happy new year!
[:music:] love makes the world go round - ashlee simpson
[:mood :] masaya
Ross is currently debating with me about my new year's resolutions. okay okay so i've been a little bit farfetched and desperate but i want you guys to know that i desperately need this change. man this is my life and i wanna make it this time. i don't wanna screw up anymore. :p
don't worry, i won't be doing all those stuff all at the same time. i ain't no super human. :p
anyways it's my gramma's birthday also today so..happy birthday mah!! :) i love you.
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! GOOD LUCK IN THE COMING YEAR AND GOD BLESS US ALL!!!
new year's resolutions!
[:music:] breathless - the corrs
[:mood :] positive
new year's resolutions.
lemme list them down before i explain.
A .BASIC STUFF *about me*
1. sleep early thus waking up early
2. stop procrastinating
3. study everyday *how noble of me haha!*
4. wash the dishes and clean my room regularly *schedule every
sunday for clean up time*
5. online time everyday: 30 minutes only unless necessary
6. make a definite schedule for my everyday routine *that i
will do when i get my final schedule after enrollment*
7. blog only important things/events :p
8. save up at least 50 bucks everyday
9. read a book at least three chapters a day
10. read PDL everyday
11. pray the rosary everyday
12. stop making pintas
13. go to the library every friday after class, borrow a book and READ IT.
14. make a book review of the book i read
15. love me for me..:p
B. FAMILY
1. appreciate them more
2. love more
3. show them that i care
4. show them how much they mean to me
5. smile.
6. give them a hug or embrace at the end of the day
7. say "i love you"
C. FRIENDSHIP
1. listen to people
2. be there for them
3. start my sentences with "you" and not "i"
4. genuinely care
5. stop bitching out on people who annoy me
6. stop hating *or at least try*
7. always help
8. do my best to be the best *friend that is*
9. accept people for what they are
10. make new friends *challenge to para sakin ah!*
D. LOVE
1. appreciate the people who love me
2. acknowledge that love exists
3. really, it does..
4. believe that things will go my way
5. learn from PDL that one must love unconditionally and without asking for anything in return. :)
6. MOVE ON BUT KEEP THE GOOD PARTS. :) *ika nga ni stellar*
7. stop being a sucker *in general na rin*
OTHER THINGS.. :)
1. detach myself from all the memories
2. i should know better by now.
3. again, move on but keep the good parts. :)
4. let him go. one and for all. :p
5. don't go online just to see if he's online..gawd..
6. stop checking his blog...like everyday...
7. stop thinking of him
8. erase all his messages on my phone before 12 am new year's day..
9. stop thinking of what might have been if only..
10. love myself and stop pitying myself
11. stop making me feel bad
12. let it all go, just let it all go and believe i can make it
13. don't talk unless necessary
bottomline is
i want change and i'm making it possible. i may sound a little bit too harsh but hey. no pain, no gain. recently people have been affected by the sudden change of my attitude and i'm kinda doing a renovating thing so sorry if i'm acting weird..
before this year ends i wanna say sorry to all the people i've hurt in one way or another. i'm sorry for all the bad times. i'm sorry for hurting your feelings or abused our friendship. i'm sorry for being a coward, for not being able to be strong enough to accept my mistakes and learn from them.
i also wanna thank *naks celeb ba haha* all my family and friends for being there for me. thanks for all the fun times we've shared, for the times you picked me up when i was down. i wanna thank ellen, pearl and rika who stuck with me for the past few terms...thanks for all the memories..good luck on all endeavors..specially to rika. you're appreciated, even if you may not notice. :p
jane...i miss you so much...i can't possibly express how much i miss you...it's been months since we last saw each other..i know you're doing alright..i know we're making it in college without each other but i want you to know that i will always be here no matter what. one day we will be together again. i don't know when but i know we will. i miss you so much.
myk..there's nothing left to say..even if i know there's so much more i wanna know..i know there's nothing you want to tell me so..i'll keep it at that. i still believe that there's a reason but i'll stop at not knowing what it is. thank you. for everything. i hope you can find what you're looking for.
no hard feelings. it may sound like goodbye but we both have to understand that it's for the best. i'll always be here for you as a friend. i hope that by now you realize that.
i'm doing all of this not only for me but also for the greter glory of God. yes, i will go to church every sunday
morning take note since i will be waking up early. :) right now i'm excited about this change..about the new year. not to mention the party later tonight. hehe..:p well it's 2:21 am on decenber 31, 2004 and well...what can i say? this year rocked my socks. i am so thankful for all the blessings me and my family have recieved, the house, the car, everything. i'll keep that in mind for the coming year. thanks to the one up above for all the miracles and for keeping the faith in me.
if you guys think there's a few things missing in my list please don't hesitate to post a comment. :)
happy new year!!!
one day to go...
and it's
new year once again...how time flies...
oh well i changed the look of this blog coz i wanted to start using this again. :)
ain't it pretty?? i like it...i'll be posting a more serious post later regarding my new year resolutions...:p
haha right now i just feel soooo bored i'm answering some surveys in friendster. well anyways do post a comment and let me know what you think, alright? :p
[edit] this ain't done yet but at least it looks decent enough to show you guys...
minsan
umaasa.
minsan
nawawalan ng pag-asa.
minsan
nawawalan na ng
pag-ibig.
tuyo ang lupa
parang may hinahanap pero wala.
tigang na lupa. at umaaraw parin.
hinahanap ko ang init ng araw na magdadala sakin sa langit.
gusto ko parin malasing sa loob ng iyong halik....
tequila sunrise
tequila - An alcoholic liquor distilled from the fermented juice of the Central American century plant
Agave tequilana
sunrise - The event or time of the daily first appearance of the sun above the eastern horizon
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hope. it means there is hope for me in the coming year. there is a cure for this sickness, there is life after this. i can stand after i fall. coz i've been here before and i'm only coming back to prove that i can make it. there's so much more room for improvement and i am looking forward to that change in my life.
The deepest level of worship is praising God in spite of pain, thanking God during a trial, trusting him when tempted, surrendering while suffering, and loving him when he seems distant.
God is real no matter how you feel.
i have to trust in that and believe..that no matter how depressed i feel, no matter how alone i feel, no matter how many friends leave me behind, there is still a God that will be there to hold me and share in my pain, if not take it away. there's so much more for me to learn in this life and i wanna learn it through Christ. i wanna go back to where i started and that's from God.
my life has been full of...potholes of pain and bitterness and i wanna fill it up with a more than just a temporary cure of false hope and lies. i wanna feel whole despite the things i don't have.
one day i'm gonna see my dad and i'm gonna make him proud. i'm gonna show him what he's missed half of his life. :p
lately i've realized so many things about me that i have to change and instead of being mad at those people who shoved it in my face and made me realize, i'm glad they told me coz it's a wake up call for me and i am seriously wanting this change. i'm glad that even if i feel so alone right now...there's still people who care. and i see God in them. that's what totally rocks. that i see the hope that God brings.
looking forward to the sunrise... :)
God is real no matter how you feel.
under the stars
"Stay" - Lisa Loeb
You say I only hear what I want to.
You say I talk so all the time so.
And I thought what I felt was simple,
and I thought that I don't belong,
and now that I am leaving,
now I know that I did something wrong 'cause I missed you.
Yeah yeah, I missed you.
And you say I only hear what I want to:
I don't listen hard,
don't pay attention to the distance that you're running
to anyone, anywhere,
I don't understand if you really care,
I'm only hearing negative: no, no, no.
So I turned the radio on, I turned the radio up,
and this woman was singing my song:
lover's in love, and the other's run away,
lover is crying 'cause the other won't stay.
Some of us hover when we weep for the other who was
dying since the day they were born.
Well, well, this is not that;
I think that I'm throwing, but I'm thrown.
And I thought I'd live forever, but now I'm not so sure.
You try to tell me that I'm clever,
but that won't take me anyhow, or anywhere with you.
You said that I was naive,
and I thought that I was strong.
I thought, "hey, I can leave, I can leave."
Oh, but now I know that I was wrong, 'cause I missed you.
Yeah, I miss you.
You said, "I caught you 'cause I want you and one day I'll let you go."
You try to give away a keeper, or keep me 'cause you know you're just
scared to lose.
And you say, "Stay."
And you say I only hear what I want to.
