tagged by rika
~* music: my grown up christmas list
~* mood: annoyed
Instructions:
1. The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points of their perfect lover.
2. Need to mention the sex of the target.
3. Tag 8 victims to join this game & leave a comment on their Comments saying they've been tagged.
4. If tagged the 2nd time, theres no need to post again.here goes...1. he should be very sweet. :) very, very sweet.
2. he should have the same musical tastes that i have. :)
3. he should know how to deal with me being
mataray and bitchy.
4. he should like to kiss and make out and bite and hug and make lampungan but
not in freaking public.5. height - a little bit taller than me is fine. no going below 5'5"? :p eyes - anything from brown to green to blue. :) haha! :p
6. i'm very expressive. he should understand that. :)
7. he should understand how much i value my family and friends. :)
8.
LoVe. enough said. :)
closure
~* music: kung wala ka - hale
~* mood: melodramatic
i walked down the side of the bay, watching the sun set on the day before new year's eve. people were busy rushing up and down the street and i could feel the lightness of the sky as pink clouds scattered their love on the horizon. today was the end of it all and i could feel the cool breeze calming my soul. the waters below me softly whispered my goodbyes for you, wherever you may be.
i walked down the baywalk, taking each memory of you and raising it up to the sky, up to God. i prayed that the water would wash away everything, all the things this year has brought me. i prayed that the waves would take memories of you and keep them safe in a beautiful place. i will be back for them one day. as for now, i'm taking my heart and living my life so that i may find God again. this year has been terrific. amazing. indescribable.
half of me no longer wishes you were right here with me. instead, i pray for your safety and well-being no matter where you may be. the sun's light is soft upon my skin, reminding my of God's gentle love. the birds on the shore sing happy songs now, as they welcome the new year. i loved you, and this year, i tamed that love. this year, i tamed my heart. this year, i made my heart understand why you were not there. next year, my heart will love again. i may still miss you a lot, but you really don't have to know. your part in my life is over and God has sent me angels to watch over my fragile heart.
last day
~* music: far away - nickelback
~* mood: melodramatic
tomorrow. in four minutes. in four minutes the last day of the year is born and it will be the day that i'm gonna close this chapter of my life. tomorrow is the last day.
the last i would speak of you.
the last i would hear of you.
the last i would think of you.
the last. last chapter of my life in which you are part of. next year will be different. next year, you shall not exist within my paradigm. next year, there won't be any tears which bear your name on it. next year, you will remain to be a faint memory.
i see the light of the stars as they are ready to shine for me and the world, to shine as a light for the hopeless. i pray that they'd live on and give me strength to face the beautiful new year God has made for us.
two years. those two years have ended and i am left to close the door and walk away. close the door and stay for the night, have a rest and prepare for the journey ahead. mixed emotions fill me as i breathe in this life. emotions like fear, anxiety, excitement, uncertainty. i have faith. i do have faith. things will change. things will change for the better. and i will live like i never lived before. i will love again. i will love again and this time it will be real. even more real than before. there's so much love, i can still feel it in my veins. so next year there will be even more. i shall live to love and give. i shall live to share God's love. witness and share. without you. without my love for you. without memories of you. without you.
this time i've thrown your pictures into the flames so it may burn into the past. this year i moved on even more, walked away more often, lived more often. next year, i won't even have second thoughts of doing so. next year, i'll be ready to take on the sky. i'll be ready to fly away from everything and make a new start.
the sun will shine pretty over the horizon. the clouds will humbly give way to the light. the tears will fall on another day. the laughter won't fade, and all the memories will be woven into another blue blanket.
because this year, i mourned your death. now you are just a ghost i refuse to see. you have finally walked out of my life, you're finally out the door. and now it is time for me to close it. this is goodbye, this is my new journey, this is a new chapter.
freefalling
~* music: alapaap - six cycle mind
~* mood: bouncy
zomg. i just downloaded three songs from
six cycle mind, their version of
alapaap, an eraserheads original, and
biglaan, both original and acoustic versions. :) i am soooo enjoying their music. must download some more! :)
anyways, i woke up at three thirty today. rawrness. i've been missing a lot of people right now. :( that's sad.
freefalling. yeah. that's what i felt when i thought of you today. and it's been so long since i did feel that way...*sigh* maybe there's jsut something wrong with me today that's why i'm feeling weird. :) harhar. :p
oh yeah and erik hasn't uploaded the pictures yet. rawr?! yeah so that's another thing to look forward to. :) i hope tomorrow's gonna be good cuz it's the last freaking day of the year! :)
just feel better...
~* music: nobela - join the club
~* mood: melancholic
Just Feel Better - Santana featuring Steven TylerShe said I feel stranded And I can't tell anymore If we're coming or I'm going It's not how I planned it I've got the key to the door But it just won't openafter the term ended, i keep thinking what will happen next. i keep thinking that i don't wanna be stuck in this in-between anymore. i wanna live this new year. i wanna live and be happy. even happier than this past year. i'm counting on that so much.
And I know, I know, I know Part of me says let it go That life happens for a reason I don't, I don't, I don't It goes I never went before But this time, this timethis time i know that everything's better. i have faith. and God's guidance.
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better Tell me what to do You know I can't see through the haze around me And I do anything that just feel better And I can't find my way Girl I need a change And I do anything that just feel better Any little thing that just feel better She said I need you to hold me I'm a little far from the shore And I'm afraid of sinking You're the only one knows me And who doesn't ignore That my soul is weepingi need to be strong on my own. i need to be independent. pratice what i preach. i just hope i could make it...
I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have its seasons
Round and round it goes
And every day's a one before
But this time, this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better
Long to hold you in my arms
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time
I'm gonna try anything that just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything that just feel better
And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything that just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better
as the new year draws closer, i pray even harder that everything would be alright...that somehow, the stars will align and shine for those who need its light.
