after all
[:music:] pop stuffage!!
[:mood :] masaya..
gone are the days
when we lived in bubbles of
safety blankets
and fairy tales.
gone are the nights filled with fear
of the boogie man beneath my bed.
gone are the fairies, the gnomes,
the charming princes.
now there's only the serene night sky
my safety blanket where i have sewn
stars and planets, stories of days that passed
dreams and tears and songs i used to sing.
the past is never far, it's neverending in shadows
and moonlight. tonight i sleep
with a soul whose burden isn't far from heavy
knowing the sun will rise and bring forth a new day
where scars won't remind me of the pain
instead remind me that i am strong
and that he's there to hold me up always.
happiness found
[:music:] huwag na huwag by kitchi nadal
[:mood :] weird but alright
from friendster again..
1. SCHOOLS YOU'VE ATTENDED?
~ Child Learning Center, Makati, St. Scholastica's College, Manila, DLSU...that makes three.
2. YEAR YOU WERE BORN?
~ 1986
3. DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
~ too much ata
4. FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING WHEN YOU WOKE UP?
~ uhm...ewan..."it's fucking late.."
5. WHAT DO YOU HAVE HANDY AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
~ my cellphone!!
6. EVER TRIED TO SKIP MEALS?
~ i always skip breakfast during non class days..
7. GRILLED OR FRIED?
~ grilled tastes better
8. WHAT MAKES YOU UNIQUE TO OTHER PEOPLE?
~ i'm me...and well...i'm different. basta i'm different.
9. WHAT ADVICE WOULD YOU GIVE TO YOURSELF TODAY?
~ love yourself more and have faith. happiness doesn't come from material things but in the small things that matter..
10. GIVEN A CHANCE TO GO ON NATIONAL TV, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
~ be a vj
11. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE HOUSEHOLD APPLIANCE WHO HAS A MIND OF ITS OWN TO FOLLOW YOUR ORDERS, WHICH WOULD YOU CHOOSE?
~ hm...i dunno...washing machine? *parang may ganun kami..*
12. ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
~ at times yeah..
13. FAVORITE HANGOUT?
~ rp, gox lobby
14. WHATS YOUR BEST PICK-UP LINE?
~ hah. that's for me to know and for you to find out..;)
15. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITH OUT?
~ money, cellphone, kikay stuff
16. YOU'RE A LIFELESS OBJECT FOR A DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
~ bed..? pillow? blanket?
17. FIRST THING YOU WILL BUY IF GIVEN 1 THOUSAND PESOS?
~ new shoes or a bag...
18. FAVORITE SONG WHEN YOU'RE SLEEPY?
~ somewhere in between by lifehouse
19. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?
~ lotsa stuff..
20. ARE YOU WILLING NOT TO TAKE A BATH FOR ONE DAY?
~ no!!!
21. CHRISTMAS GIFT YOU WANT TO RECEIVE?
~ new laptop..*garapal e*
22. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
~ val, valot, and lotsa other names..*refer to last month's post*
23. WHAT IS YOUR DAD'S MIDDLE NAME?
~ i have no idea!! i don't even know him!
24. WHO ARE THE GFS/BFS OF YOUR BROTHER(S)/SISTER(S)?
~ sori wala pa e...
25. MOST RECENT MOVIE THAT YOU WATCHED?
~ the terminal. astig.
26. INVISIBLE FOR A DAY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
~ follow someone around and watchi him sleep..
27. GIVEN 3 WISHES, WHAT WOULD THEY BE?
~ peace of mind, peace on earth and contentment for everyone
28. STUCK ON A DESERT ISLAND & COULD HAVE ONLY ONE KIND OF FOOD FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
~ ice cream...cookies and cream flavor
29. FAVORITE T.V. COMMERCIAL?
~ the sinigang thing where there's this cute kid rapping about yung luto ng mom nya..
30. IF YOU'LL DIE TOMORROW, WHY NOT TODAY?
~ takte ang labo...
31. FIRST THING(s) YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?
~ money and cellphone
32. YOUR EYE COLOR?
dark brown...
33. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS
CARRY?
cellphone...wallet...tissue
34. SHOWBIZ OR POLITICS?
~ showbiz..mas maraming links to hot cute guys e
35. FROM 1-10, RATE PRES. GMA?
~ 6?
36. WHAT DO USUALLY DO WHEN THE CLOCK TURNS 7?
~ nagiging magandang seductress ako..joke...wala...er...
37. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEET?
~ purple
38. GIVE JUST 1 FAVORITE SONG.
~ huwag na huwag by kitchie nadal
39. IF YOU WILL DIE TODAY, WHO DO YOU THINK WILL CRY THE FIRST?
~ grandma
40. WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?
~ ms. universe
41. AGE WHEN YOU FIRST FELL IN LOVE?
~ 17
42. AGE WHEN YOU WERE FIRST ENLIGHTENED?
~ anuh? depends on how you put it..;)
43. NUMBER OF PEOPLE YOU'RE CHATTING WITH RIGHT NOW?
~ two. arvil and ellen
44. NAME AS MUCH ALIASES YOU USE TO HIDE YOURSELF:
~ kanuha, kanuharaine, lavender skye, chevelle, firewater..
45. FAVORITE SUMMER DRINK?
~ pearl shakes!
46. FAVORITE DESSERT?
~ ice cream
47. COLOR OF YOUR WINDOWS MEDIA PLAYER RIGHT NOW?
~ purple
48. COLOR OF YOUR DESKTOP WALPAPER?
~ blue
49. FAVORITE COLOR OF UNDERWEAR?
~ erm...skin tone? pink?
50. DO YOU BELIEVE IN HOROSCOPES?
~ depends. kapag sa libre..oo!! haha..
51. CHIDHOOD DREAM?
~ to be a rock star
***
WHAT..
..is in your closet that you treasure most?
>> uhm...malamang clothes?
..song that makes you wanna dance?
>> jlo songs...
..you bring anywhere with you?
>> cellphone..
..do you do first upon waking up?
>> magsuklay..believe it or not..
..time do you usually go to sleep?
>> eleven or twelve
..is the scariest movie ever?
>> ewan..
..makes you tremble?
>> pag sobrang lamig or sobrang takot
..type of clothes do you like wearing?
>> usual normal jeans and shirt look with a little bracelets and stuff...
..youve been thinking lately?
>> loving myself..
..part of your body do you adore?
>> hair
..have you done to pamper yourself lately?
>> i was supposed to go to the derma..
..is your sleepwear?
>> daster..minsan spag straps and shorts
..do you want to add up to your room?
>> sun design on the ceiling
..scent/perfume do you like best from a
man/woman?
>> anything that smells like seduction ;)
..would you rather have -coffee or iced tea?
>> erm..hirap...i like both e
..is your best trait?
>> being open minded
..what would you rather do -go out or sleep?
>> depends on my mood and who i'm gonna go with
..would you rather engaged yourself into-
basketball or scuba diving?
>> neither!
..in your house do you want to get rid of?
>> all the antique whateverness
..is sexy for you?
>> uhm...someone who smells good, and like..there's this undescribable look in the eyes...basta asa mata lng talaga..saka sa touch
..is a romantic date for you?
>> dinner movie thingy usual stuff
..brings you to tears?
>> the past
..have you eaten before logging in?
>> uh huh..
..do you think of long-distance love affair?
>> nah
..do you pray you rather not have?
>> my life sometimes
..was the last movie you watched in the theater?
>> haha chasing liberty. tagal na no?
..do you prefer- jeans or skirt?
>> jeans
..do you do -jog or swim?
>> jog
..name would you rather have?
>> anneliese
..makes you lose your temper?
>> my mom
..food are you craving for lately?
>> ice cream
..the world needs now?
>> peace and contentment
well anyways, that was long. i just came home from southmall..sort of baby sitted jan jan and sacha..it was weird coz janzen was there...di kami nagpapansinan haha kala mo galet..duhh hu cares anyways..ayun..pero at least naget over na ng mga tita namin yung uuuuyyy thingy. mom ko naman pag uwi she was like..asking stuff about myk and ross parang ako...er...wala lang nakakatawa...tas yung tita ko ren tinanong c myk kung nililigawan ako..parang..er...anu ba yan..wala lang.
anyways, i saw the terminal yesterday and it was very good. catherine zeta jones didn't look as good as she did in..er..what was that film she did with that ER guy? basta yun. tom hanks was good. ang cute nga nya e. wala lang.
ayun. hehe. cge...dc na ko in a while..saka may ilalagay pa ko sa ashes fall e. :)
when boredom strikes
[:music:] vertical horizon - you're a god
[:mood :] very very very bored.
Part 1: Basics
1. NICKNAME: val, valot
2. SEX: female
3. BIRTHDATE: july 24, 1986
4. WHERE DO YOU LIVE: Manila, Philippines
5. HEIGHT: 5'7 or something
6. SHOE SIZE: 9?
7. FIRST CRUSH: mmm forgot na e..
8. WHATS YOUR SIGN: leo
9. WHATS THE FIRST IMPRESSION OF YOU: mataray
10. HAVE A TATTOO: nope..
Part 2: Food
1. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING: burger king
2. COKE OR PEPSI: pepsi
3. ROOT BEER OR CALI: root beer
4. TEA OR COFFEE: coffee with bailey's
5. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE: both.
6. CAKE OR PIE: cake
Part 3: Pick one
1. MARRY PERFECT FRIEND OR PERFECT LOVER: uhm...dun wanna get married e..
2. CATS OR DOGS: dogs.
3. 1 PILLOW OR 2: two. with a big blankie..
4. W/ OR W/O ICE: with ice..lots..
5. TOP OR BOTTOM: depends on what yer reffering to..weheheh
6. WINTER/SPRING/SUMMER/FALL: summer rawks..*sings summer sunshine*
7. SKIING OR BOARDING: wanna learn how to skateboard
8. BIKING OR BLADING: er...
9.ROCK/RAP/R&B/PUNK/ALT/SKA/TECHNO/SWING: alternative rock and punk
10. NIGHT OR DAY: night...hehe..
11. VEST OR MITTENS: er..
12. DRESSED OR UNDRESSED: dressed. then have someone else undress you..haha joke..
13. BUNK OR WATER BED: wtf
14. MAKE PLANS OR GO ALONG: kahit ano..
15. TRUTH OR DARE: uhm...depends on mah mood..
17. OCEAN OR POOL: ocean!!
18. SHOWERS OR BATHS: both..:)
19. BLIND OR DEAF: er...i dunno..
Part 4: Favorites
1. COLOR: purple
2. NUMBER: 3
3. SUBJECT: erm...english?
4. SHOE BRAND/s: parisian, skechers...whatever
6. DRINK: red tea
7. ANIMAL: phoenix
8. HOLIDAY: christmas!!
9. FAVORITE LINE FROM A MOVIE: "at the count of three, i'm gonna kiss you" or something like that..sa how to deal haha cheesy wala na ko amisip e...
10. BAND: evanescence
11. MOVIE: kahit ano basta interesting
12. PLACE TO CHILL: gox lobby!! kahit mainit!
13. FLOWER: white roses.
14. PERFUME: herbench na bare
Part 5: Would you..
1. MOVE ANYWHERE? preferrably within the city
2. DYE YOUR HAIR? did that already! :)
3. ONE FAMOUS PERSON? anuh?
4. LIVE WITH ONE PERSON FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE? maybe...
5. NAME ONE PERSON YOU LOVE: like you don't already know..
6. NAME ONE THING THAT EMBARRASSES YOU: er..haha..
7. DO YOU LIKE SCHOOL? yeah..sorta..
8. DO YOU LIKE TALKING ON THE PHONE? uh huh as long as we're having a good conversation...
9. DO YOU HAVE YOUR OWN LINE? cellphone lang po..
10. ARE YOU BORED? yeah. very.
4 a.m.
[:music:] shadow - ashlee
[:mood :] awake..wide awake..
i woke up at three this morning...i slept through the afternoon after coming home real early yesterday. man that sucks. haha. yeah. anyways, no one's online *malamang* and it's kinda getting boring...i'm gonna go blog hopping. hehe how boring. i think i'm craving for a shopping spree this weekend. i passed by the minimall near our place before i came home yesterday and i found some cool clothes. wah!! i am so broke! i bought a lock for the locker and a chain thing for my room here. the damn door always gets me locked out and it sucks. heh.
grace has a pretty new blog layout! kewl. i like it. delish. speaking of grace, she's got a lot of new cool posts that kinda make my brain work in the sense that it make me think about things. wah..i always think about things..hehe. yeah. maybe you've all seen it by now but i created yet another blog which was named watch me as i sleep..it's a dark thingy opposite of what i have here. coz this is the day and the other side is the night. but i suggest that you guys read more of this instead of the other one. hehe. you don't wanna know why. :)
hm. i fell kinda off being awake at this hour of the day. *groan* dammit. when i woke upi thought it was like around midnight...then i looked at the clock and it said 3 a.m. i was like...what?! shit. argh. now what? i think i'm gonna go read a book or something and just wait for the morning to arrive.
i'm missing a bunch of sleeping people right now. :)
er....
[:music:] gox noise
[:mood :] pathetic
hate my mom.
living in a new day
[:music:] giving it all away - ashlee
[:mood :] weird
maybe not so much of a good day but at least i know very well i am living in a new day.
well anyways, i've been thinking a lot again and i was having some tiny doubts about myself...but then i know and i'm totally convonced that i'm fine now. an annoyance hit me this afternoon on the form of two people whom i shall not name. the first person,...i dunno...i have no friggin idea why the hell i was so annoyed at her when she wean't doing anything to me! gawd! but hell it disapeared anyways coz of the other annoyance i had which in fact brought me to the point of tears. mad tears. i have never falt so annoyed an frustrated in my whole life. i just can't believe Ross would be so senseless to even try that with me! hello!? what's the point? if you're trying to test some stupid psychological theory on me well i'm not some stupid lab rat okay? i'm a person if you haven't thought about it. know what's even more annoying? the fact that you had the guts to get mad. you do not know to even respect other people's rights and you get mad? come on, Ross, i thought you were really bright. but hell. i don't wanna care anymore. i had a headache after crying the hell outta me. which was kinda funny though. *sigh*
anyways, sheena and i are talking through text right now. i miss that girl. then there's jane whom i haven't heard of for a long time now. hm.
i've been a bad girl lately, not reading school material and such. damn. yesterday was my tita's birthday and myk and ellen were over here at the house for the little celebration. zyreen and myk were having a real bonding time while i was like, err... but it was cute to watch them..i can't believe myk's patence with her. i mean, zyreen is just a brat and i dunno how he was like so patient to the point that they understood each other. wah dun wanna think about it...:) point is, they were really cute. *aaww...*
hm. i wanna watch tv but i'm also sleepy. i might be logging out in a few and be back later. see yawl around..:)
damn
[:music:] shadow - ashlee
[:mood :] feeling good..
damn. why the hell do i have to feel like this? like i'm on a high just at the sight of his name on my ym list...*he's online*...gawd i suck. anyways, today was cool. i woke up at the wrong side of the bed but it was alright coz i made my way through th day with a smile on my face. heh. so after class, ellen, myk and i took ross to david's salon and he had his hair cut and man he looked damn good. wehehe.
aneeeways, i was able to talk to grace last night...it was cool. i miss that girl...:)
i'm answering a bunch if quizzes on quizzilla. then i'll log out in a few.
why the hell can't i get enough of him?!
going crazy over this song
Better Off - Ashlee
The sky has fallen
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok somehow
I spilt my coffee, it went
All over your clothes
I gotta wear mine now
And im always, always,always late
And my hair's a mess,
Even when it's straight
So what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
You would say, i'm better off in every way
My friends keep callin'
They say, they say im stallin'
And they wanna meet you now
I tell them hell no, i say
We're tryin' to lay low
Don't wanna lose what i've found
Things are finally, finally lookin' up
All my fear, on the ground
Even though im stuck
So what,
I'm better off everyday
When i'm standing in the pouring rain, I dont mind
I think of you and everythings alright
I used to think i had it good
But now i know that i misunderstood
You would say, i'm better off in every way
Better off in every way
I'm better off in every way
I'm better off today
The sky has fallen
And it's early in the morning
But it's ok
when silence means a lot
[:music:] orbit by *artist*
[:mood :] love...?
funny when i don't have to say a word
and you'll know what i'm thinking.
funny how i don't have to ask
to know what you wanna say
and know that somehow
you're talking straight to my heart.
funny when the sunshine will leave me dazed
like a first kiss, second, perhaps
i never counted anyways.
funny how i wanna hold your hand
just because it feels warm.
funny how i wanna hug you
just because it was a weekend and
i missed seeing you for two days.
funny how sometimes i just wanna stare at you
while you do your thing, go about your day.
funny howafter all said and done
you're still the one, the reason for my smile,
the reason why i'm still believing.
yah it's a mushy poem...i did not see that coming. i wanted something deeper but hell. this is how i feel so...i miss him. a lot. hah. sucks but it's ok. i've been doing terribly fime for the past week. first week of the second term was great and i hope it lasts until the end of the term. :)
anyways, i'm really sleepy now so i'll see yawl.
passion
[:music:] here in my heart - plus one
[:mood :] sleepy
~ more than words can say...can you hear me when i pray in the pouring rain, baby i'm missing you...
wala lang. i heard the song again after many years...kinda feels good though. i'm gonna look for that song by regine velasquez and david hasselhoff. anyways, andrea and i were talking and i kinda realized something. love is about selflessly caring for and giving to others without expecting anything in return. wala lang.
ewan ko ba...my life is changing pero there's still some things na parang di mawala wala sa life mo...sabi ko nalang na what if God's real lesson for me was to love without asking anything in return di ba? now alam ko na mali ko. and ang galing kase parang feeling ko asa ibang lebel nanaman ako sa buhay ko. ibang lebel kase kahit papano i can see my paradigms shifting again to another horizon...which is good. :)
all in all this day rawked. :) masaya ako dahil ang daming blessings na binigay sakin ni God and now ko lang sila naappreciate. and grabe ang appreciation ko abot langit. kaya ganito na ko magsalita. taglish na bangag na. oo matutulog na rin ako.
good night. :)
time stands still
[:music:] keyboard
[:mood :] empty and lost
time stads still
for a body lotion bottle
with its lid pried open
waiting for someone
to give it a squeeze
so that the white stuff
would come out.
then
smell it
the scent of lotion
so pink in the sense
that
it's girly.
i realize that
it's so me.
at the same time that
it isn't me.
coz i'm filled with sweet lies
so sweet like the scent of lotion.
white pink stuff.
white pink scent
sunblock-ish sometimes.
lotion. sunblock.
blocking the sun.
blocking the light
that used to bath me
with warmth.
but now
the sun doesn't touch me.
i've grown cold,
imprisoned, waiting
while time stands still
waiting
like the lotion bottle.
standing still.
waiting.
***
kinda bored. was supposed to apply lotion but went online and blogged instead. cried myself to sleep last night. thought that it was over. had to think again. coz it wasn't. thought i wanted to fall for someone new. just for the sake of losing this feeling. but thought again that it would end up the same. was thinking i felt this way last year. almost exactly in the same position. ended up with a bitter sweet thing. bitter. and sweet. this time more intense than before. keep asking myself was it a mistake. keep asking if this is my great fall. asking. always asking. always waiting.
tummy aches. stupid monthly bitch out to make my tummy hurt again. no one's online. feu won against ateneo. 65-51. got two hours left on the internet card. no one texting me. silence filling my ears. desolate. tears run dry. words echoing in my head. forgot that it was saturday night. telling myself everything will be alright. telling myself i can do this. having a little faith. being numb. being very numb.
logging out now.
so maybe i was wrong
[:music:] hanggang ngayon - kyla
[:mood :] hurt
SORRY TAO LANG AKO. SORRY KASE NADADALA LANG AKO NG EMOSYON KO. SORRY NA GANITO AKO.
SORRY I CAN'T BE PERFECT.
some things just never go away don't they?
[:music:] sway - bic runga
[:mood :] just so annoyed
updates...i fixed the picture above as you can see...hehe kind of personalized it and stuff..well..i'm on to chapter two of purpose driven life and it's kind of making sense so far. it's all good. thing is, i hope i could keep it all in my head.
anyways, been awefully annoyed just now. i'm trying very hard not to be annoyed at anyone for that matter but no...they just won't fecking go away. how freakin' sad. i wanna rant and stuff but i'm trying hard not to coz it's part of the i'm-gonna-stop-being-bitchy thing i'm putting up with ever since i started reading the purpose driven life. uh huh. so much for self improvement huh? well the point why i am so annoyed is just one person. uh huh. she's s friend of mine who has been very...weird lately...she has this relationship with a guy which i don't get at all coz she hasn't explained it to me--gawd we don't even talk! which is why we can't freaking understand each other--at least i cannot understand her coz she's too busy ranting about things i don't understand! *am i slow or there's really something wrong with her?* then here she goes talking to some other friend of mine with whom i have the same friggin problem! i mean, one is enough, ya know. and it's so annoying coz you know what? i wanna understand them. i wanna understand her, i wanna understand him. but no. i can't. you know why? coz they never explained anything to me! it's lke they're leaving me in the dark for no apparent reason except that oh gawd we understand each other never mind val she doesn't get it anyways, besides, she doesn't give a damn. hello?!
maybe i'm just selfish for wanting to understand both of you. but you know what? it kind of hurts coz you're my friends and i wanna be there for you but you just keep on shutting everything away. well then fine if you want it that way. maybe i've been too selfish when someone broke my heart...maybe i wanted all the attention. but you know, right now i can say i'm moving on without your fucking help. and i don't care anymore if you don't notice that i'm here for you, trying to be strong even if i know one of these days i'd be falling apart again.
she was right. and i wouldn't be surprised if she's on your side. coz you're right. you always were. she was too. maybe i'm just selfish. maybe i'm just in too deep in myself. well sorry for being that way. forget i said anything. just do your thing and forget about me. just forget it.
testimonials.
[:music:] ashlee's pieces of me
[:mood :] bored as usual
i'm updating for the sake of the new look. lol. hah! i think this is better than the last one coz the last one was kind of cramped inside the tables..anyways...
i wrote testimonials for Kitel and ellen and guess what? they did have something nice to say about me to..*sounds like i did not expect that but hey that's me!*
anyways, here's what Ellen said:
cant beliv it took us almost a year bago
tau nakasulat ng testie 4 each other!
[how conio.. hehe] anyway, this gurL is
one of mah closest friends in coLej! not
to mention one of my originaL anak!!
hehe.. she may be hard to reach at
times, with her mood swings and all..
but once you reach her, it'L be so hard
for you to let go.. it's just that this gurL's
so sweet, so nice, and so fun to be with,
that every minute with her will definitely
be one of those unforgettable moments
of your coLej life. u'd find yourself sad or
angry or whatever at one minute, then,
there she is, ready to give u a smile and
make u laugh agen! she's that cool.
she's also okay to talk with. you can tell
her ur secrets and she'l be able to keep
them. she knows what i'm feeling or
thinkin sometimes just by lookin at me,
kinda creepy, but i admire her for that..
ahaha.. and not to forget.. she's also
one of the pretty girLz.. [val.. wag ng
umangal..] luvyah so much!!! take care
olweiz, ayt? *
well yeah i would have to agree with her that it did kind of take us one year to know each other really well..kind of the same story as Rika..i think the real thing that pulled us together was anmath1 under sir tristan...the first time i mean..coz they were my classmates during that time and yes we all failed. anyways...moving on to Kitel..
"hello, pwede po kay val?", lola:"wla
sha, cud u col back l8r? who's this?..
wlecum" grbe, the girl with such a nice
grandma hehe!! val, hey i miss ya, lalo
na ung the old u.. but i think ul get back
in shape, u just need time and set
worries free ryt?!.. this gurl is my shock
absorber before, as in grbe.. alam nya
halos lhat ng ngyyre.. and i really thank
her for listenin to me, kc wlang hiya ako
mgkwento jan dba val?! and her crazy
dreams keep on catching me.. she
dreamt of smething abt me, then a
week later a friend fr the other side of
the fence (whom it is obvious she
doesn't know) dreamt of the same
thing.. waaah!! bsta, she's one cool gal,
never to be under estimated.. ul be
shocked with what ul hear from her..
from OUTRAGEOUS stories, hot of the
grill haha.. til mga advices at mga
predictions.. she's one gurl i really love..
ur almost there gurl, love like u never
wud.. khet sa tingin ng ibang tao mali,
bsta ur happy, dun ka tlga dald
is it me or the message was cut? anyways, yeah she had to rub in the "you changed" thing..uh huh..hey i'm not denying it or anything...but..yeah it's kinda sad that she misses the old me. what can i say? sometimes people change and it's not for the better. too bad. i'm trying to make the best out of it either way so it's all good.
know what? i realized something. what i need right now is for people to really appreciate me. coz..i dunno...i'm losing faith *i think* and nothing seems to be going right. Pearl begged me to read the purple and yellow book *bestseller* which i forgot what the title was...so there. i am gonna start reading that today. and i'm gonna finish off Eleven Minutes so i could read the Unbearable Lightness..*sigh*
so there. guess that's all. the outing is still weird for me. i hope we could pull it off. i hope they would reply to my text messages so i know what's going on dammet!!
;p
why
::music:: from the bottom of my broken heart - britney spears *vomits*
::mood :: down
why do people keep pushing it that i'm jealous of her? LIKE DO I HAVE A SIGNBOARD ON MY FOREHEAD SAYING SO? well if there is then tell me i'd gladly take it off! duh!
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anyways, i've been updating this blog coz i don't want it to be a stale blog just like my friends unfortunately..it's been pretty boring lately and yah. dammet.
I AM FUCKING BORED.
fecking course cards giving me the creeps
::music:: vindicated by dashboard confessional
::mood :: really really worried
tomorrow's course card release day and right now my tummy's doing flip flops..man i can't afford another 0.0 coz i've got 9 freaking units *3 of which i can still snatch if i get like 2.5 on maccoms2..* so there..i just got my course cards release schedule and well...er. i dunno what to say. three our of four terms i screwed up and i'm really thinking of transferring colleges. either that or i'll get myself higher grades next term and go kick ass. i've already searched *and found* a decent tutorial for objectp *yippee* while i am kind of excited/worried about.
i woke up today feeling really off it again..i think it's the weather. it's been all cloudy and ugly and it kinda pisses me off. i mean, my mood sucks and the weather adds up to it and er..it sucks.
i had a decent conversation *at least i think so* with antet last night and this afternoon :) which was all good. hm. i'm hungry. heh. la lng. i've been watching tv all day *meaning from the time i woke up which was one pm:)* so there..my mom ain't home yet and my sister is as usual very annoying. i owe sam and kitel a call. i'll get to that later.
wah feel so bored. should go read a book. the one i'm reading now is Paulo Coelho's new one,
Eleven Minutes which is cool. the reviews are right. it does make the readers dream.
anyways, i'm still thinking of attending the teambuilding
shit thing myk told us about. too bad rika and ross won't be there...sad. anyways, i'm waiting til this internet card runs out so..there. i've got less than forty minutes so i have to kind of hurry. :) i'll see you later.
i hope i get to write a poem again. :)
