raindrops falling...just falling.
i loved sheena's post. hehe. can't help but really be inspired by the things she says. :) thanks diyosa ko. mahal kita. :)
hay. i still haven't finished my mp. not that i'm having second thoughts. it's just that i'm disappointed that i haven't finished it yet. and i'm planning to get a 3.0 and above on this course. another thing is the manacon thing which we screwed up on hte first part of the business case. hay. leche. then there's the maccoms thing which i hope i do not fail...i hate that subject!! ggrr!! oh well. anyways, tomorrow we've got a dept exam on compro2 and right noew i'm too sleepy to study so i'll do that tomorrow. shit. wah! ang hectic ng bukas ko..and come to think of it...ayan. nawala yung thought kase ngym ako. hay, never mind. inaantok na kase ako e...
sheena agrees with me about the raindrops blog. i'm gonna leave it be for a while. i need to think. without all the angst and stuff. i have to make it through without all the bad memories and the sama ng loob. i need my freedom. i desperately need my freedom. i have to fly away and find it.
sheena, you're right. and somehow he's helping me do it. he's avoiding me (at least i think so) and right now the time i spend with him is like the limit of something as x approaches infinity. shit. anmath. well anyway, yun.
kahit nga masakit, malungkot and everything, it's like a requirement to pass this term in my life. and it sucks. coz right now i feel emptier than ever. i feel like half of my everything got lost...like half of my everything was taken away by the wind. sayang.
i keep thinking na sayang lahat yun para itapon nalang ng basta basta. pero kailangan e. since it didn't mean much to both of us, i guess kailangan lang talaga kalimutan at magkunwaring lahat ay ok na kahit sa loob ko gusto ko na humgulgol. masakit na pinapatay ko sarili ko dahil dito. pero bakit ba tayo namamatay? di ba para mabuhay tayo muli? sana ganun kadali.
pansin ko na hindi parin nawawala yung galit ko sa kanya. naroon parin ang hinanakit sa thought na everything was a lie. may magagwa pa ba ako? wala na e...sana lang sinabi mo sakin kung bakit. kase un nalang yung tanong na di mo pa nasasagot. bakit. pero sige..ok lang. sabi mo hindi mo masagot e. ok lang yun. one day malalaman ko rin yan. now is just not the time. parang now was not the time for us. ganun lang yun.
i keep telling myself...if only it was that easy. it will be once i get past this. how can i get rid of the memories? everywhere i go i'm reminded of you. i believed in your sincerity. and you told me it was a lie. i wouldn't believe you. i would not believe you when you say you never wanted any of it. you know why? because i know sincerity when i see it. and i know you're decent enough to mean what you say and do. i know you're decent enough not to use me. i believe you when you say u care. alam kong nahihirapan kang ipakita yun. pero the fact na sinabi mo is enough for me to believe. feeling ko nga ngayon sobrang nawala na lahat, kahit yung simpleng malasakit mo para sakin as a friend. pero umaasa akong hinde. umaasa akong praning lang ako and that it's just all in my head.
right now i'm only wishing for this on my birthday. i wish for my peace of mind...and yours, and that everything would be alright again between us. kahit wala na celebration, gifts and everything. basta magkaayos lang tayo masaya na ko.
kailangan liparin ng hangin
lahat ng alaalang unukit mo
sa isipan ko.
paano ko magawang limutin
at harapin ang bukas
nang walang buwan na nagbibigay
liwanag sa gabi ko.
bakit kailangan mawala ang lahat
gayong hindi naman masamang magmahal
alam kong hindi masamang umibig
pero isinialpak ang langit ko
sa impiyernong ito.
wala nang pagasa sa pagsilang
ng aking araw, sa liwanag na dati'y dala mo.
wala nang matitira sa akin
dahil ang lahat ng ito
na inalay ko sa iyo
tinangay na ng hangin
kasama ng alaala mo.
did i just write a poem in filipino? this is so not me. told you i'm not myself. :) see you.
[edit] sheena's lovely post...
oh. yah i think itll do you good if you leave the raindrops blog.
some sort of sign, a really huge sign, has come up. im not sure if you've noticed it, but as the storm ( i mean the real storm, the storm, the bagyo) wreaks havoc up north, while the storm gets nearer and stronger, andito ka, moving on, braving the storm. you have decided to leave, to move out and seek shelter somewhere else. somewhere dry--a place where your cup of ashes wont get wet. habang palakas ng palakas ang ulan, at nagiging bagyo ang mumunting patak (thus raindrops) ng ulan, lalo kang lumalakas.
di nga rin ako naniniwala na fire ka eh. it all connects--heaven, rain, flying. you have the POWER to control the rain, to brave the rain. anu k ba talaga? diyosa ka ba ng ano? :D
at isa pa. YOU CANNOT MAKE HIM FLY AWAY FROM YOU, VAL. he isnt a phoenix. he doesnt have the capacity to fly. you cant let go of him by making him fly away from you. ikaw ang lilipad. ikaw ang lilipad papalayo kasi IKAW ang PHOENIX.
he says that he is a saint. living saints don't fly to heaven STRAIGHT. unless... they're dead, of course.
unlike you. neither sinner, nor saint, in this realm, YOU ARE A GODDESS.
actually, WE ARE.
:D
love, unpretty. :)
law of diminishing marginal utility
i dunno. the damn thing just popped into my mind while i was making my mp which is still not done. i've got like until tonight to get this done. shit. man there's still something wrong with it that's why i'm kinda annoyed right now. i'm hungry and cold and just nayayamot about the mp. i'll get this done. i friggin will. hay. later i'm gonna get me a red hat linux installer. i might experiment with my laptop and install it. nyahaha. sana hindi siya masira. oh well.
DON'T ANNOY ME. wala lang. naisip ko lang. nakakaasar kasi yung bitch na clasmate ko sa manacon...gr..i so hate her so much!! well andrea and pearl do too so it means there isn't anything wrong with me...nyahaha! *sheena siya yung sinasabi kong malandi...remember the other night?* oh yeah and i think she hates me too so great may ka-m.u. na ko. hate nga lang. :D i've been wanting to renew the look of my borrowed heaven blog but then it would ruin the whole pink image thing so i changed my mind. i won't. my poetry blog is up and running..haha! wala lang. 4 na blogs ko..but the fourth one doesn't count...it's just poetry lang naman e. so there.
shout out to grace...thanks for the very advanced greeting, girl...also to pearl, ellen, andrea (get well soon my dear..), ruthie (i miss you!), sheena *draco* (miss the times), stellar (mahal kita ano man mangyare) and to all of you who read this. thanks guys. means a lot. take care always. :)
far away beside me
i just made my sort of farewell entry in my raindrops blog...i'm kinda leaving that place for while just to forget about the bad times.
yeah i'm kinda speechles right now..i have no idea where to start...well today sucked...yeah and i don't wanna talk about it. i met up with sam in um. i borrowed her cds which i had just finished copying.
i hate the weather! it's freaking me out! it's too windy and weird and...i dunno. it just gives me this really weird feeling. must be the dreams that i've been having for the past few days. weirdness.
ggrrr...can't seem to express myself through simple words so i'm saying it again through a song.
One Last Cry
Brian Mcknight
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands
Standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
I gave my best to you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I gotta put you out of my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry
I was here
You were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone
Wishing all my feelings was gone
Gotta get over you
Nothing for me to do
But have one last cry
One last cry
Before I leave it all behind
I goota put you out of my mind
For the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down, I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...
how boring can i get. anyways, i so wanna finish my mp na..*yeah mp parin ang iniisip. anu ba.* wala lang. saya ng compro2 kanina e. grabe nagsulat ako sa board ng isang mahabang function..nakakangawit pala magsulat sa board. well anyway. ayun.
there's something about the way the wind howls,
the way the trees brush the air's sparks and create creepy sounds.
there's something about the way the wind resembles your whispered goodbye,
my wrath when i realized i was living a lie.
why do they keep haunting me?
why can't i see freedom past the gray clouds?
i'm trapped in between this windy hell.
i wanted rain and you gave me the wind.
the angry wind that forced me
to let you go, let you fly.
thanks to unpretty for this comment that i had to dig up... :)
i have a little problem, fellow goddess.
whenever you're hurt, whenever you're sad, i cant just help but notice how beautiful you are. there is something beautiful and amazing in the way you are whenever you sail on troubled waters; however, its hard to see from the bridges you once walked on (which now, i have been visiting). maybe, i'd get a better view upclose. i just realized you have not been staring at the two lights above the sea. there is no sea.
it has been in you all along. its the reservoir of your little hopes, your little dreams; the sea is where you have kept your tears. the drops that you have not shed became the sea, and the reason why you come back to such place whenever you're blue is because, you scoop the waters in your cup of ashes, and you bring it home.
and its hard to rise if your ashes are wet.
burn. you are a phoenix. the two lights are in you, you own the heaven.
love, unpretty
***
thanks also to pearl for being there. it really means a lot. :) so there. i guess that's all for now...i'll check back soon.
something something
oh well i couldn't wait til tonight to update my blog so... *yeah and i can't resist the free internet here in school so..*
I HAVE A FRIGGIN NEW CRUSH! no, not the ones that i'd actually fall hard for..you know..just those aw man you're so cute kind of thing. his name is Micheal and he's a part of the Pep Squad and he's a frosh here in ccs..*squeals* aint't that great? yeah...and he looks so much like daniel radcliffe...*squeals again* *big big smile on her face* he's got glasses and stuff...kris knows him (yeah thanks for the info) and he says that Micheal is conyo. haha! who cares? ayun. rika has a crush on him too. actually she was the one who first spotted him. :) nee~ anyways, that's one of the reasons why i'm feeling really good today. the other is because I'M ALMOST FRIGGIN DONE WITH MY MP!! *cheers* hehe..yeah i've got one friggin function to go and a few retouches on computations here and there and i'm set. the funny thing is i just found out today that we could submit it on thursday, that is minus the bonus points for submitting early (tomorrow).
owels...by the weay shout outs to sheena (amishu dear!), grace and the rest of the gang. thanks to Ross for the thingy he sent us last night. and yeah for all the people i was yming last night and bugging about my mp..special thanks..hehe..there there. i'm getting excited again about something i don't know what!! is it my birthday? what do you think? gawd...this is weird!! anyways, there's a compro2 dept exam on thursday (yes i already said that yesterday duh) and...uh...a tentative quiz in anmath on friday this week or next week...hehe owels. :) nee~ hay. why do i seem to be so happy nowadays...i mean, things are going awefully fast and at the same time slow for me...and i find it odd. (di na weird haha!) yeah and er...i'm still looking forward to something which is as of now unknown to me. how strange.
Ross has been hopping from one anmath class to another. i heard he's feeling he's gonna fail in that subject. this morning i was kidding him about taking anmath2 with me next term and he was freaking out. haha poor guy. hm. owel. gawd! it's so cold in the lab i'm freezing to death! and outside it's kinda hot coz i think it's gonna rain...i think it's something to do with the hot air getting trapped between the atmosphere and the clouds..whatever..see? i'm ranting coz i'm so psyched up about my mp! ang babaw ko na haha!!
i've got nothing else to say..panu ba yan..oh yeah i'm really liking this not so new girl band from...the place where the corrs are from..ireland! right ireland...i think. haha! there. they're called bellefire and their new song just rocks. not literally rock thing...they kinda sound like..bardot...solid harmonie...that kind of thing. they're this three piece vocal band (used to be four before their previous record company dropped them. how weird.) as i said they're irish and they have this new song out...it's called "say something anyway" which is really good. the really cool thing is that they're hopping over to manila soon to be a guest performer for mtv pilipinas awards. ain't that great? i wish i could watch them live but then i'm busy and it's a night thing i won't be allowed by my parents to go so i'll have to depend on the idiot box to get that. oh well. yes i am ranting continuously about things now and totally avoiding my mp in hte other window. nee~ i really have this thing for pretty girl bands. well those who look sophisticated, that is...some liek play are kinda kiddish for me. well anyways again...i heard bond's got a new album oput and it's called classified. i wanna grab a copy of that thing. yeah and opaline by dishwalla. :) haven't finished downloading the corrs new album. i keep forgetting to.
hey hey check out sheena's blog...the layout is like being changed every week or something. hehe..nice thing to watch out for. :) yeah and thanks too, sheena. ya rock. for the first time parang ako yung masaya tapos ikaw yung depressed. la lang.
so there. yun lang muna for now. puntahan ko pa sila. lunch na! :)
in this diary
here's something i got from sheena *yes oo ang kulit nya* :)
"You're In Love" - Wilson Phillips
Open the door and come in
I'm so glad to see you my friend
Don't know how long it has been
Having those feelings again.
And now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
My love
You're in love
That's the way
It should be
'Cause I want you to be happy
You're in love
And I know
That you're not in love with me
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love
Sometimes it's hard to believe
That you're never coming back to me
I've had this dream that you'd always be by my side
Oh I could have died.
But now I see that you're so happy
And ooh, it just sets me free.
And I'd like to see
Us as good of friends
As we used to be
I tried to find you but you were so far away
I was praying that fate would bring you back to me
Someday, someday, someday... Ooh, you're in love
Ooh it's enough
For me to know
That you're in love
Now I'll let you go
'Cause I know
That you're in love
***
i just had one of the most positively sensible conversations i've ever had in days. i dunno. right now i have this weird positive feeling going on. i'm even making my mp can you believe that? oh well. i hope this thing would last me for the whole week. i've got a dept exam for compro2 on thursday then an anmath1 quiz on friday (tentative lang...sana tlga). yeah. so there. i am so sleepy my eyelids are gonna drop so..i'll see you tomorrow. wish me luck on all the stuff this week! :)
nothing important
yeah just a few non sense stuff going around in my head LIKE WHEN WILL THEY FUCKING BUY ME A NEW CELLPHONE I'M DYING TO HAVE ONE ALREADY...yeah that sorta thing and...what else? yeah today was as boring as a Sunday could get. i'm supposed to do my mp but that will have to wait until my boring-i-don't-wanna-do-anything mood fades away. anyways, i've been having weird dreams again lately...one being that someone died. i'm not gonna tell you who. basta someone died. and it sucks. anyways i don't wanna think about that anymore so...i wanna start writing stuff again. :D yeah...me the crappy writer.
hey lemme bitch about Ross for a sec here...it's annoying that he's so mataray in ym...i dunno..it just gets to me. sa lahat ng ayoko kase yung wala ka pa ngang hinihirit tinatarayan ka na agad. weird e. wala lang. ayun.
i wanna change the layout of my raindrops blog. it looks so dead kase e. my dj looks even prettier than my raindrops blog. anu ba yan. yeah and i haven't even posted there in days. no one comments naman so what's the use, right? the templates there suck kase e. kakaasar. blogspot is prettier but the other server is easier to manage and stuff. owels. i guess one thing compensates for the other. so there. i'm into making link buttons for everyone's websites and blogs so... :) i haven't gotten the chance to place them here however. told you it was kinda hard to do it here. i got them all in my raindrops blog, don't worry.
hm...you know sometimes i've got this weird feeling of excitement,like something great is about to happen. i can't figure out what it is though. i don't know why sometimes i feel this way. it's just so weird.
shit i'm feeling sleepy again! wah! i can't! i have a bunch of schoolwork to do yet! speaking of...guess what i have for the church involvement thing? chatechism! i'm gonna teach kids! i don't like kids! gawd!!! what the hell!! oh well i'll try something else. coz my mom's kind of close to the priest/headmaster (!?!?!) of the school in the church so...i'll work things out. i have to. or else i'd fail relstwo. duh. how pathetic. grr.
hay. people have been so good to me lately that i'm just so tired to even look at them in the face. *am i making sense? no.* basta. nakakainis yung fact na they shove things in your face for you to understand and digest..e pano kung ayoko?! damn. nakakaasar kase na parang i listen naman to them, di nila kailangan pagpilitan. in the first place naman they don't fully understand e. wala lang. nakakaasar lang the way they act like they know it all. di kayo diyos. wag kayo makulit. ang sugat hinahayaan maghilom. hindi tinuturok. hm. kaya yun.
reminder to self: buy dishwalla's new album, opaline. :) either that or download the friggin songs.
so there. i guess that's all for now. see yah...
so much for my happy ending
it's kinda tiring updating two blogs at the same time so i think i'm gonna give this one a break. for those who know raindrops just go there coz that's what i update like everyday. for butterfly garden...nyahaha! it's literally a deadjournal so..i dunno. depends. :) nee~ to jason thanks for the thing you sent me and sorry coz i got disconnected...
so there. it's one somethign already and there's rotc tomorrow. gawd. see you soon.
***
it's quiet tonight under the velvet sky
the remnants of what you said
sit quietly in the corner of my room
like shadows from my yellow lamp,
the old fan humming my lullabye.
realizing everything is like the dawn
while i wait for it by my window.
bittersweet is the word i could use
to describe everything. all of it
was insanely beautiful and empty
at the same time. i had to fill it
with helium so it would fly.
so i could let you go. so you would be
my shiny red balloon again
against my crimson lavender sky.
you were everything i wanted
but fate knew better.
these tears would soon dry
when i'm waiting for the rain again
waiting for my freedom
behind the gates.
it's been a long time since i wrote something like that. :)
stellar rains
Extraordinary - Liz Phair
You think that I go home at night
Take off my clothes, turn out the lights
But I burn letters that I write
To you, to make you love me
Yeah, I drive naked through the park
And run the stop sign in the dark
Stand in the street, yell out my heart
To make, to make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
You may not believe in me
But I believe in you
So I still take the trash out
Does that make me too normal for you?
So dig a little deeper, cause
You still don't get it yet
See me lickin' my lips, need a primitive fix
And I'll make, I'll make you love me
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
See me jump through hoops for you
You stand there watching me performing
What exactly do you do?
Have you ever thought it's you that's boring?
Who the hell are you?
I am extraordinary, if you'd ever get to know me
I am extraordinary, I am just your ordinary
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
Supergoddess
Average every day sane psycho
Average every day sane psycho
will live another day
just lost myself back there. right now i have no idea how to feel. since i woke up i've been trying so hard to fight back the tears. i haven't done what i was supposed to do today and it sucks coz they're piling up like shit. anyways, grace has been amazingly supportive and i wanna send her a shoutout for that. thanks, girl. you rock.
anyways, i'm updating two blogs at the same time which is kinda cool...hehe...yeah the raindrops thing...it rocks. met a few cool friends coz of that. so there. i've been playing the same song over and over again since last night and man it rocks.
i still wish i was never born. not because of this shit but because of all the things that happened in my life collectively. the only thing that keeps me hanging on now is stellar and jane. i know they'll make sense of all of this somehow.
i'm tired but the wind wills me to stand up on my feet again. for those who have gone ahead of us, for those who loved and lost, for the beauty in everything. and most of all, for love and the two lights above the sea.
thanks for shoving it in my face [my first hate post]
yeah. finally gotten things straight. gawd. that was terrible. but do i care? i think not. the important thing now is that everything's clear. for me that is. i know what to do and i'm gonna do it. you know why? coz i'm sick of you. sick of you and the things you put me through. thanks for shoving it in my face. thanks for teaching me how to hate the only person i ever loved this way. thanks for never giving me a chance. thank you coz you were selfish and too into yourself that you didn't see the possibilites. i respect that.
so i hate you. you wouldn't give a damn anyways, right? you never did. why should you anyway? sino ba ako sayo? wala di ba? tang ina hindi ako bulag para makita yun. hindi ako tanga. kaya sana wag mo kong hinihiritan ng madrama kase totoo naman e.
ayan. malaya ka na. wag mo na kong iisipin ha? go do whatever you wanna do. don't ever think of me anymore. gawd come to think of it you never did. so it wouldn't make a fucking difference now would it?
you know, call me mean and evrything, but i love the fact that everyone hates you for what you did. coz you know what, you deserve it. you have no fucking idea how i feel don't you dare say you know coz you don't, ok? you fucking don't.
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
fuck you. go to hell. whatever.
[edit] and yeah sorry for being so blunt. :)
the hell i live knowing so much dreams won't come true.
here's a song for this certain someone i decided to let go. you know why? there's nothing much left. i'm not throwing it away. i just figured that it would do us both good if i just walk away from this. i would get on with my life and you'd get on with yours. i've caused you enough trouble so i'm just gonna drop it. it's all in God's hands now. i know the path he wants me to take and i'm not liking it very much. even then, i have to. i just have to. there's nothing else i could do.
here's your freedom. i never owned it anyway. i wish you peace of mind and acceptence, and all the good stuff in life. i wish you the best things so that you'd just forget everything that happened between us. it was just a stupid lie. forget it. it's been six months and by this time we should've forgotten everything that happened.
Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do
It's nice to know you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done
~avril lavigne, my happy ending
you let my hand melt into yours and i thought it was love.
the hell i live knowing so much dreams won't come true
so much was lost when i found you.
hope was everything at the moment. now hope has left me to let go of you and let you fly...
serendipity
manacon dep exam was great...i was the first one out of the class and i think i did well. i hope. :)
anyways, i got this comment on my raindrops blog from someone i do not know and the things she said just made so much sense. she's just one of those who remind me that i'm not alone in this. she's one of those who reminds me that people do care. and sometimes you find what you need in the most unexpected places. here's what she said...
*remember i am writing this without knowing the circumstances... mistake? we'll see. :D* be strong! - you can forget about the bad times with him, and just live your life. but hold on to the good times and remember what you shared. i guarantee it'll do you good in the future. because any relationship you have after this will be twice as good! move on because it's over with him, and move on because there are things to come. and it can only get better. :D ~grace
i seriously don't know what to do anymore and you friggin know what i mean.
six months today. six fucking months and i'm back to square one, back to where i was six months back. it isn't fair.
slightly damaged and confused
it's more like a wound that has slightly healed...can't feel much pain anymore. it's either that or i'm too numb to feel anything. maybe it's the latter.
well anyway, there's nothing much to say coz i'm in school right now. anmath was great for the first time i did not feel a bit sleepy or anything. lol. manacon was cut short coz there's the dep exam later and right now i'm waiting or them to come out of class so we could all have lunch together. anyways, i guess that's all muna. see you later!
*full version of this post is in raindrops. and if you're thinking raindrops.blogspot.com, you are so wrong. lol*
lyrics
here's this cute new song i heard on the radio a few days back...i found the lyrics on some other people's blog (bad bad) and i kinda copied it...*smirk* jason kinda revised the other japanese words coz duh i don't understand them!! anyways, wala lang!! nakakatuwa yung new blog ko!! hehe..aimee finds it too bright for her eyes..little angsty girl. actually yeah me too but heck pink is my favorite color so who cares?
"kokoro" means heart and "itsumo" means always. "eien" means forever (which is related to itsumo or something like that). [thanks to jason for the translation and corrections] i've been looking up the words in some online dictionary and i think it does make sense...i think. haha! anyways, here's the song. i hope this blog doesn't appear on search engines after this. hehe...wish me luck on my departmental exam tomorrow!!! i friggin need it!!
Itsumo
Dice & K9 feat. Sashi Yuichiro
Juz' call me 1st born
You're my 1st love
You're my 1st kiss from up above
And I don't care if you don't give love back
Coz' n my heart is where your ass is at
I love your eyes , your nose & your tender lips
Wanna kiss your neck, your shoulders to your finger tips
I go crazy when you shake those sexy hips
Baby girl you're the 1 I can't resist
You know I love you from the very start
I don't care if you break my heart
I'm the man & I'm here for you
Believe me coz' my love is true
Itsumo kokoro e hoshi itsuka dareka tamata koi ni uchitemo
Itsumo kokoro de eiro itsumo anata dake no basho ga arukara
You wanna get down with k-n-i-n-e
Make sure that's pure l-o-v-e
Never talk about the i-c-e
Coz' I only got my h-e-a-r-t for y-o-u
I can't pay the bills for dinner
I juz' give them my IOU
For sure, I'm not after f-u-c-k
Got no b-a-d intentions don't wanna play girl
Maybe we might spot a UFO
Wait that's not part of the rhyme juz' felt like sayin' so
You gotta know that I love from the start till f-o-r-e-v-e-r
Itsumo kokoro e hoshi itsuka dareka tamata koi ni uchitemo
Itsumo kokoro de eiro itsumo anata dake no basho ga arukara
Baby girl be my 1st lady
Be the mom of my 1st baby
You didn't like me when you 1st show me
I'll be gentle I'll do it slowly
Girl, I think it's better if you was with me
I got doe coz' I juz' won the spelling bee
For you, I got all the t-i-m-e
Ask mommies to pass but I'm not so sure
Juz' doin' my on thing
Shits more expensive than your fancy gold rings
I don't mean dissin' coz' I gots to go there
Mommies don't care
All for them ladies, even chicks with nose rings
Itsumo kokoro e hoshi itsuka dareka tamata koi ni uchitemo
Itsumo kokoro de eiro itsumo anata dake no basho ga arukara
Itsumo kokoro e hoshi itsuka dareka tamata koi ni uchitemo
Itsumo kokoro de eiro itsumo anata dake no basho ga arukara
me the crappy writer
When the rain starts to fall
and life finds you on your knees again
you must remember the faith of the blue sky
to hang above the earth as a ceiling
against the dark of the universe.
Remember the faith of the rainbow
to smile after the clouds had cried
their sorrows to wash away all
anxiety of the earth.
Remember the faith
that would keep us together
despite the distance, despite the time,
through letters and telephone lines.
This is the faith we're believing, the lives
we keep on living, and in this dark
we'll find a light that's each other's heart.
Bless you for the warmth I had found,
I'd keep it for the rest of my life.
Now it's time for you to fly,
my shiny red balloon
against my crimson lavender sky.
the damn poem was supposed to be happy i don't know why it turned out so...sad. weird thing. anyways, i did that while i was supposed to be studying and i fell asleep. how nice. anyways, i'm gonna go renovate this blog and put up links and stuff oryt? see you.
my new fluffy pink blog
well forgive me for being so bored but heck i had nothing to do so i created yet another new blog. lol.
i like blogspot's new layout and stuff so i figured a new blog wouldn't hurt. :) i love the pink template it's sooo cute!! hehe...yeah and i'll have to customie the whole thing so i could add my links and stuff. i currrently have three running blogs--one in deadjournal (which is like literally dead right now), one in...er i'm not telling you where and the third and newest one is this pink fluffy cute blog..haha yeah i love it. it's so...i dunno. it's so happy and nice and far from what my other blogs are. owels. so there. i've got a departmental exam tomorrow on management and i haven't quite started studying yet so i better move out of here now. i'll see you later.
