it's raining.
and i miss him so much.
it's hard to miss someone who sitting next to you...or for that matter someone who's so near yet so far. :(
it's only now that i've grown to realize the truth in the saying that the hardest way to miss someone is when he's sitting next to you but you can't let him feel how much you miss him...how much you love him. yeah so i'm getting all mushy again...gawd who cares? hehe..i'm still on the search for more skins for my other private blog so...it's all good. :)
hm. i'm hungry. will be back later. i'm still on the lookout for hoobastank tickets..yeah i am so determined to go to that concert...so yeah i'll check em out later. :) see yah!!
[edit] damn tickets are so expensive..i mean, look at this... there's P1,599; P1,323; P828; P331 wah!! i hope there's still available...gonna call up that damned ticketworld thing and reserve stuff...but i have to talk to stellar first... :D so again, i'll get back later.
..more layout renovations
wah!! i lurve mah new layout!! thanks for
rika bringing back my links thing whatever you call it... :D i'm really annoyed at someone right now..ehehe...that's why i'm shutting them all away by listening to the radio and blogging!! wahahah...anyways, it's almost lunch...i'm hungry...
i'm pissed off by the those people who have everything and yet they don't seem to appreciate what they have. it sucks when they can't see that they are annoying and they can't seem to get over things. ::sigh::
i love train's new song...ordinary...it rawks. :)
[edit] and to those who don't like my blog or anything about it, GET THE FUCK OUT. if you've got nothing nice to say then shut up. simple as that.
new layout
number one: i did not make this layout...i got it from blogskins.com...tey've got a lot of nice cool skins there so if you're as lazy as i am to make my own..go right ahead and look for one. you gotta have an account though before downloading stuff...
anyways, i like it even if it's all pink AGAIN. hehe...at least...the thingsi don't like about this blog...well i haven't figured out how to change the font color for the username and post dates and subject and all...the coding for this one is on one whole body so the font colors are all the same...kinda sucks but i'll fix that soon. i hope i get it though. :)
i'm not yet done with all this though. the links aren't complete yet. maybe tomorrow it'll all be good. for now i have got to sleep. been talking to Grace again. *big big smile*
mmmm....i'm starting to love this blog. :D haha!! that or i'm just sleepy!! see you soon!!
when the clouds think twice about rain
song that's on my mind :: some song by carol banawa...i forgot the title *grins*
i'm really sorry for bitching out on the previous post. i know very well that i have the right to but hey...this is a public blog and somehoe it does concern other people so...i just wanna say sorry for flaming on certain people.
anyways, since i got on the bus on the way home i've been having this weird good feeling...yeah i even did my maccoms assignment! can you believe that? gawd..and i finished reading the next chapter we're gonna discuss in manacon. i'm currently downloading my mp2 from the files folder of our groups *snickers*. heh. :) don't remind me. i'm even kind of motivated to do my next mp concerning FILES. damn those files. :)
anyways...i miss him a lot. wah how mushy of meeeee!!! i really don't wanna ba mushy here of all places but...er...it is my blog...hehe...wala lang...i just miss him, masama? kase epal e. pinaalala pa ni kitel...er...of all the things i don't like it's when people remind me of things that should be long forgotten. things like all the good things he has done for me. you know why? coz it hurts somehow. to think of all the good times and everything...it just feels sad to think that it's all gone. :( er...hate it when my eyes get all blurry right when i'm typing in the dark..damn tears...i wish i could put cement in my tear ducts or something. haha kidding.
er anyways, i'm searching for new skins for this blog. i'm getting tired of the blogspot look. i already found one and i'm gonna test it somewhere else before putting it here. wah!!~ off to work on it!!
when the rain wants to fall but doesn't
song that's on my mind :: can i go now by jennifer love hewitt
it's been pretty boring lately and due to consistent puiblic demand yeah i am now updating. gawd there isn't anything to talk about that's why i ain't updating!! er...
well actually there is but it isn't fit to be published in this blog. ::sigh:: dammit. hm. what's new? i've got a new phone...er...how corny. enrollment is coming up and i havenb't figured out a decent schedule yet...er..talk about lazy. lately i've been so lazy to do anything i swear...i'm even lazy enough to not eat...yeah you heard that right. i've only been drinking lots of coffee. yun lang. corny no?
the church involvement thing is not yet done....grr....yeah and i've got what? two damn weeks. how nice. by the way, i'm planning to go to the
hoobastank concert this
august 17, 2004 at the
folk arts theater. i do hope my parents allow me to go. stellar's gonna come with me if ever we pull through with it. :) at the very least that's the only thing i'm looking forward to next week. how pathetic.
anyways...the reason why i wasn't updating lately was coz i was updating my dj. that thing is updated almost everyday so if you find nothing here, it means that it's all there. :) dammet i can't find the ticket prices of the damn concert online!! er!!
hm.
lately i've been very angsty in my other blog. hey, di na ko magpapakaplastic dito. oo naaasar ako and i don't give a damn anymore kung may makabasa pa nito or what. yeah so i'm slightly annoyed that kung umasal sha kala mo i don't exist. it does piss me off and at the same time ok lang kase i guess sanay na ko. ok lang. i mean, it doesn't make a difference naman e. sooner or later din naman maiinis din ako and you know..it's all a vicious cycle din naman. lam mo actually it's kinda unfair on my part na i'm spilling all my beans on my online blogs. i mean, everyone knows what i think tapos ikaw...wala. never did i know what you were thinking. para akong pinagdamot sa mga thoughts mo. you still haven't answered my question (and if you don't remember, it's why) pero di na ko umaasa. i don't care much anymore if we don't talk for the rest of my life. i mean, if this is what you think would be better for both of us then fine. ok. tatanggapin ko. yun yung gusto mo e. may magagawa pa ba ko? one thing's for sure though. one day siguro malamang at sana mapatawad na kita kase kahit ako pagod na ko mainis. pagod na ko sa kakaisip. para kaseng may kaaway kang pader. mainis ka man, sapakin mo man, NR parin, di ba? masaya. sobrang saya. pero alam mo ang galing mo rin kase somehow it works. somehow. the pader strategy is kinda rubbing off on me. konti nalang masasanay na rin ako. hm. yeah whatever. sana nga lang i can hold everything until you graduate. yeah another thing i am duly thankful for na mas maaga kayo gagraduate kaysa sa amin. para naman hindi na kita makita. kung pwede nga lang lilipat na ko ng school e. kung di lang to la salle ginawa ko na. damn. bat ganon...i mean, kailangan bang lahgat ng bagay may kapalit? i mean, this school rocks like hell pero hindi ko maapreciate kase andito ka e. oo alam ko masama ako pero this is how i feel. sorry. sorry kasi naiinis ako at hindi ko mapigilan. ok lang sakin na magalit ka. you have every right to get mad at me for all care. ok lang. magalit ka. magwala ka sa harap ko, kung pwede nga awayin mo ko or sampalin mo ko bakit? may pakialam pa ba ko? wala. kase i'm too tired and too numb to feel anything anymore. that's why. tamo, yung sinasabi nilang selos, di ko an mafeel kase wala nang ibababa yung emotions ko. kumbaga asa zero na sha. wala nag ibababa kase kung bababa pa sha asa negative infinity na. ganun yung feeling ko ngayon. happy?
yes i am unfair and yes i am selfish. i know that. i know that very well. hindi mo na kailangan sabihin sakin yun. alam ko na. at kahit ano pa ibanat mo sakin na lait or whatever, wala na. wala na akong pakialam. pagod na ko, all i wanna do is rest. yun lang. take a break from everything. minsan nga naisip ko sana ako nalang si kitel. sana ako nalang yung nasagasaan at nakaLOA ngayon. pero hinde e. ako to. ako si val na nadudurog na pilit hinihila pababa. ako si val na pilit kinakayanan kahit alam na niyang sobrang sakit na. ako si val na kahit ano man mangyare nagmamahal parin kahit nagmumuka na shang tanga sa harap ng mga taong hindi marunong umintindi sa kanya. iba na talaga. grabe. ano ba ako baliw o hibang o makulit lang talaga? hay. ewan.
at sa tanong na kung sino pipiliin mo, ang mahal mo o yung taong ipaglalaban ang pagmamahal para sa iyo..ang sagot ko...actually..the situation is vague. it depends on the specific situation i am in...kung yung mahal ko hindi ako mahal or wala talagang potential na mahalin ako..well then asa pagtanggap ko nalang yun di ba? if not..kung may potential naman then make him fall. :) hehe..kung yung taong mahal ako...well i'd give him a chance. kase wala naman mawawala sakin kung bigyan ko siya ng chance di ba? besides, i like being adored. madaling mahalin ang mga taong sumasamba sayo.
ohkay, i think i have said enough...too much in fact. sa mga natamaan ko in one way or another, sorry. soryy this is my blog. :) you shouldn't give a fuck about it. you risk getting hurt or getting pissed off once you read this so...pasensyahan nalang. :) will log out now. got class. :)
p.s. in fairness i do feel a little bit better getting that off me...
lyrics. i am so uncreative.
Crash Into Me
by Dave Matthews Band
You've got your ball
you've got your chain
tied to me tight
tie me up again
who's got their claws
in you my friend
Into your heart
I'll beat again
Sweet like candy to my soul
Sweet you rock and sweet you roll
Lost for you I'm so lost for you
You come crash into me
And I come into you
I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
Touch your lips just so I know
In your eyes, love, it glows so
I'm bare boned and crazy for you
When you come crash into me, baby
And I come into you
In a boys dream
In a boys dream
If I've gone overboard
Then I'm begging you to forgive me
in my haste
When I'm holding you so girl close to me
Oh and you come crashinto me, baby
And I come into you
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show the world to me
Hike up your skirt a little more
and show your world to me
In a boys dream..
In a boys dream
Oh I watch you there
through the window
And I stare at you
You wear nothing but you wear it so well
tied up and twisted
the way I'd like to be
For you, for me, come crash into me
***
it means something somehow. yeah the song's kinda bastos and everything but hey it makes sense. :) it's cute...haha. in a way. la lng.
*grins*
happy birthday myk!!!
rip off!!! *i meant ME*
hey there..here's something i ripped off from the blog of myk's friend..another goddess *hehe*...right now i'm supposed to be...er...studying for manacon *dept exam on monday* but then i just had to blog something. :) yeah..haven't started the mp *hides*... :) and here's what i ripped off..yeah and if you'll look closely..hah! the answers are kinda...weird...
DALAI LAMA PERSONALITY TEST
Just 4 questions and the answers will surprise you. Do not cheat by looking up the answers. The mind is like a parachute, it works best when it is opened. You have to follow the instructions very closely.
Do not cheat.MAKE A WISH BEFORE BEGINNING THE TEST!!
There are only four questions and if you see them all before finishing, you will not have honest results. Go down slowly and do each exercise as you scroll down. Don't look ahead. Get pencil and paper to write your answers as you go along. You will need it at the end. This is an honest questionnaire which will tell you a lot about your true self.
Put the following 5 animals in the order of your preference.
a. cow
b. tiger
c. sheep
d. horse
e. pig
Write one word that describes each one of the following:
~dog
~rat
~sea
~cat
~coffee
Think of someone (who also knows you and is important to you) that you can relate them to the following colours (do not repeat your answer twice. Name just one person for each colour.)
~yellow
~red
~green
~orange
~white
Finally, write down your favourite number and your favourite day of the week.
Finished? Please be sure that your answers are what you REALLY WANT. *hey i really did this and funny i didn't change the answers and when i found out the results i was like...er...*
Look at the interpretations below: (but first before continuing, repeat your wish.)
This will define your priorities in your life.
a. cow - career
b. tiger - pride
c. sheep -love
d. horse - family
e. pig - money
Your description of dog implies
YOUR OWN PERSONALITY.
Your description of cat implies
the personality of your partner.
Your description of rat implies
the personality of your enemies.
Your description of coffee is
how you interpret SEX.
Your description of the Sea
implies your own life.
~Yellow: Someone you will never forget
~Orange: Someone you consider your true friend
~Red: Someone that you really love
~White: Your twin soul
~Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life
You have to send this message to as many persons as your favourite number and your wish will come true on the day that you put. This is what the Dalai Lama has said about the Millennium -- just take a few seconds to read it and think.
Do not put away this message, the mantra will come out from your hands in the next 96 hours.You will have a very pleasant surprise. This is true, even if you are not superstitious.Please try this. It is fascinating.
and here's my results...
tiger - pride *wtf*
horse - family
sheep - love *no really*
cow - career
pig - money
*it's so not me..*
~dog: loyal and trustworthy ~my personality
~rat: resourceful ~my enemies?! *where the fuck did that come from?!*
~sea: sublime ~my life?! *uh huh. yeah.*
~cat: beautiful ~my partner..yeah one hot beautiful sexy thing..*er..haha!*
~coffee: warm, cozy, relates to love ~what i think about sex *yeah baby. i rawk.*
~Yellow: Someone you will never forget :
Stellar
~Orange: Someone you consider your true friend :
Jane mah bessie!!
~Red: Someone that you really love :
13. *er...!! like i didn't know that!! haha!*
~White: Your twin soul :
Samantha
~Green: Someone that you will remember for the rest of your life :
Sheena Goddess
favorite number: 13
favorite day: Monday. *great*
yeah well...hehe..that was cool. i remember answering something like that whe i was in grade six..it came out in some newsletter/monthly mag in our school...hehe..childhood memories..i feel so old! HAHAHA! yeah and i'm turning 18 in a week. gawd.
oh well as i said my life is sublime. naks. ayun. cge na..i'll see you soon. if you're wondering why i'm updating here ish because deadjourn server is dead! dammit...anyways, yeah see you soon. :)
standing on the edge of the world
greetings...
haven't been updating in a while now. i renovated this blog and renamed it raindrops coz i as kinda getting tired of the pink thing. it hurt my eyes. it's too bright. anyway, i swapped the names of this blog and the raindrops blog for no reason...i just wanted something new. :)
anyways, this week went pretty slow. really slow in fact. which is fine by me coz today's friday and the week is like an inch from being over. :) yeah tomorrow will be our rotc thing...another half day of standing in the field doing nothing. then on sunday i've got the Church thing i have to attend. i wasn't able to go last week due to some annoying things and now i really have to get down to business and get over it. hm. i'm updating my other blogs..they're kinda getting stale... :)
hey hoobastank has a new release, it's called
unaffected. one of my favorites in their album. hm. haha..ruthie's going weird again...she's getting overly excited for my birthday...dunno why though..:)
anyways, i'm supposed to be studying for manacon dept exam on monday but hell i'm really sleepy. i'm gonna log off in a while. *i like my new layout!!* hehe..take care guys.
*shout out to grace and sheena!!*
what? i've got nothing else to do...
| ABOUT YOU |
| Your full name:: | er...read my mind. |
| Age:: | 17 |
| Height:: | five five or somthing |
| Natural hair colour:: | dark brown |
| Eye colour:: | dark brown |
| Number of siblings:: | one |
| Glasses/contacts?:: | nah |
| Piercings:: | i want to have some... |
| Tattoos:: | er..no. |
| Braces?:: | yuck. never had them. |
| FAVOURITE |
| Colour:: | purple |
| Band:: | evanescence..lifehouse...that sorta thing |
| Song:: | my happy ending by avril lavigne |
| Stuffed animal:: | teddy bears!!! |
| Video game:: | er...mario? |
| TV show:: | mtv |
| Movie:: | spiderman |
| Book:: | harry potter stuff |
| Food:: | fast food |
| Game on a cell phone:: | er..snake? |
| CD cover:: | this is hard...er...rivermaya |
| Flower:: | white roses |
| Scent:: | jaohnson's precious petals and cool water for women |
| Animal:: | eagle |
| Comic book:: | er...archie |
| Cereal:: | honey stars |
| Website:: | http://www.deadjournal.com/~kanuha |
| Cartoon:: | kim possible |
| DO YOU |
| Play an instrument?:: | no...i wish |
| Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: | no! |
| Like to sing?:: | yeah... |
| Have a job?:: | no |
| Have a cell phone?:: | right now..NO!!! *cries* |
| Like to play sports?:: | no |
| Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: | no |
| Have a crush on someone?:: | yeh of course...lots of someones |
| Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: | yeah sure |
| Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: | no |
| Have any special talents/skills?:: | of course |
| Excercise daily?:: | no |
| Like school?:: | yeah very much |
| CAN YOU |
| Sing the alphabet backwards?:: | no |
| Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: | no |
| Speak any other languages?:: | er..Filipino |
| Go a day without food?:: | i haven't tried that |
| Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: | yeah... *evil grin* |
| Read music, not just tabs?:: | er..no |
| Roll your tongue?:: | ges so |
| Eat a whole pizza?:: | no |
| HAVE YOU EVER |
| Snuck out of the house?:: | nope |
| Cried to get out of trouble?:: | yeah!! haha! |
| Gotten lost in your city?:: | erm..not alone... |
| Seen a shooting star?:: | yeah! :) |
| Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: | nope |
| Had a serious surgery?:: | nope |
| Stolen something important to someone else?:: | er..no. |
| Solved a rubiks cube?:: | er..no. |
| Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: | i think so...i don't remember |
| Cried over a girl?:: | yeash |
| Cried over a boy?:: | yeah. |
| Kissed a random stranger?:: | random stranger? no way. |
| Hugged a random stranger?:: | no. |
| Been in a fist fight?:: | nah. |
| Been arrested?:: | no. |
| Done drugs?:: | no way. |
| Had alcohol?:: | i think so. |
| Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: | no... |
| Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: | YEAH!! |
| Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: | yeah.. |
| Swore at your parents?:: | no... |
| Been to warped tour?:: | no.. |
| Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: | hm. i've always wanted to. |
| Been in love?:: | of course. |
| Been close to love?:: | yeah. |
| Been to a casino?:: | no. |
| Ran over an animal and killed it?:: | no. |
| Broken a bone?:: | nah. |
| Gotten stitches?:: | never. |
| Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: | waterballoon fight yes. in winter no. |
| Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: | no. |
| Made homemade muffins?:: | nah. pancakes. |
| Bitten someone?:: | YEAH. cool. |
| Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: | no. |
| More than 5 times?:: | nah. |
| Been to niagra falls?:: | no. |
| Burped in someones face?:: | haha no. |
| Gotten the chicken pox?:: | nope. |
| WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU |
| Brushed your teeth:: | a while ago. |
| Went to the bathroom:: | a while ago. |
| Saw a movie in theaters:: | er...i forgot. |
| Read a book:: | last month? |
| Had a snow day:: | er..no snow here. |
| Had a party:: | few months back |
| Had a slumber party:: | never |
| Made fun of someone:: | haha like right now |
| Tripped in front of someone:: | long time ago |
| Went to the grocery store:: | other week |
| Got sick:: | right now |
| Cursed:: | er...in my mind right now |
| PICK ONE |
| Fruit/vegetables:: | fruit |
| Black/white:: | black |
| Lights on/lights off:: | lights off!!! |
| TV/movie:: | movie |
| Car/truck:: | car |
| Body spray/lotion:: | spray |
| Cash/check:: | cash |
| Pillows/blankets:: | er...blankets |
| Headache/stomach ache:: | headache |
| Paint/charcoal:: | paint |
| Chinese food/mexican food:: | chinese i guess |
| Summer/winter:: | summer |
| Snow/rain:: | rain |
| Fog/misty:: | misty |
| Rock/rap:: | rock |
| Meat/vegetarian:: | meat |
| Boy/girl:: | er..depends. |
| Chocolate/vanilla:: | chocolate |
| Sprinkles/icing:: | icing |
| Cake/pie:: | cake |
| French toast/french fries:: | french fries!!! |
| Strawberries/blueberries:: | blueberries |
| Ocean/swimming pool:: | ocean |
| Hugs/kisses:: | kisses |
| Cookies/muffins:: | cookies |
| p33n/bewbz:: | wtf |
| Wallet/pocket:: | wallet |
| Window/door:: | window |
| Emo/goth:: | emo |
| Pink/purple:: | purple |
| Cat/dog:: | dog |
| Long sleeve/short sleeve:: | short |
| Pants/shorts:: | pants |
| Winter break/spring break:: | spring |
| Spring/autumn:: | autumn |
| Clouds/clear sky:: | white clouds..but not too much |
| Moon/mars:: | moon |
| FRIENDSHIP |
| How many friends do you have?:: | moderately many. haha |
| What are their names?:: | er... |
| Do you have a best friend?:: | yeah |
| Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: | yeah of course |
| Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: | more girls |
| Have you ever lost a friend?:: | yeah |
| Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: | think so |
| Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: | er.. |
| Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: | yeah |
| Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: | kissed them? haha joke..i'd put my ass on the line for them that's what. |
| Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: | same thing i guess...caring and being there means a lot. |
| Do you miss any of your old friends?:: | yeah of course |
| What friend have you known the longest?:: | jane |
| Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: | nope. ya hear that? |
| If so, what is it?:: | no nga e |
| How often do you spend time with your friends?:: | lots like everyday |
| Do any of your friends drive?:: | yeah i think |
| Has a friend of yours ever died?:: | no. thank God |
| Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: | er...almost screwed each other? nah..that was cool. |
| What do you think your friends think of you?:: | i rawk. |
| LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP |
| Have you ever been in love?:: | yeah i just said so kanina |
| If you have, with who?:: | er...someone. |
| Are you single?:: | yeah |
| Are you in a relationship?:: | no. duh. |
| If so, for how long?:: | no nga e |
| Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: | yeah |
| What is your idea of the best date?:: | er..typical dinner...movies maybe...shopping...hehe |
| What was your first kiss like?:: | BANG BANG BOOM!!! |
| How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: | 17 |
| Do you think love is a load of shit?:: | nah. ish cool. |
| Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: | er...hehe..almost getting screwed. |
| If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: | none. |
| Have you ever been dumped?:: | no. |
| Have you ever dumped someone?:: | no. |
| Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: | as i said, almost getting screwed. |
| WORD ASSOCIATION |
| Slippers:: | foot |
| Hat:: | head |
| Hard:: | dick haha |
| Free:: | will |
| Space:: | planet |
| Taste:: | buds |
| Good charlotte:: | hold on |
| Red:: | color |
| Deep:: | blue |
| Heart:: | mind |
| Cord:: | music |
| Cheese:: | yellow |
| Rain:: | rain |
| Work:: | school |
| Pedal:: | pushers |
| Head:: | mind |
| Bed:: | sex |
| Fluff:: | cute |
| Hardcore:: | rock |
| Race:: | car |
| Knife:: | kill |
| Jump:: | die |
| I.... |
| am:: | a goddess. |
| want:: | you. |
| need:: | you. |
| crave:: | for ice cream and cake. |
| love:: | someone. |
| hate:: | same someone. |
| did:: | something i wasn't supposed to do. |
| feel:: | too hot in here |
| miss:: | someone who just emailed me. |
| am annoyed by:: | same person. haha joke |
| would rather:: | be in an aircon room |
| am tired of:: | being this way |
| will always:: | love him. |
| SILLY STUFF |
| What is your favourite genre of music?:: | rock pop alternative |
| What time is it now?:: | 3:55 pm |
| What day is it?:: | sunday |
| Whens the last time you called someone?:: | long time ago |
| How much money do you have right now?:: | two hundred bucks |
| Are you hungry?:: | sorta |
| Whatcha doin?:: | answering this quiz while reading an email |
| Do you like parades?:: | ok lng |
| Do you like the moon?:: | very much |
| What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: | post it in my blog |
| Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: | yeah |
| If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: | freeze time |
| Have you ever had a picnic?:: | er no. |
| Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young?:: | er no |
| What about sock em boppers?:: | no. |
| Are you wearing any socks right now?:: | no |
| DO YOU THINK YOU ARE |
| funny?:: | yeah |
| pretty?:: | yeah! |
| sarcastic?:: | too much. |
| lazy?:: | yeah. |
| hyper?:: | yeah. |
| friendly?:: | yeah. |
| evil?:: | haha yeah |
| smart?:: | of course. |
| strong?:: | sorta. |
| talented?:: | yep. |
| dorky?:: | yeah |
| ASSOCIATE THESE WORDS WITH SOMEONE YOU KNOW (or dont know) |
| high:: | myk |
| skip:: | haha myk |
| dance:: | jason |
| lonely:: | er.. |
| pen:: | ross!! |
| flower:: | cynthia |
| window:: | er... |
| psycho:: | me. |
| brain freeze:: | me. |
| orange:: | tomochan |
| sassy:: | pearl |
| jelly:: | tutay? |
| FOR OR AGAINST |
| suicide:: | for |
| love:: | for |
| drunk drivers:: | against |
| airplanes:: | for? |
| war:: | er |
| canada:: | er |
| united states:: | er!! |
| rock music:: | for |
| gay marriage:: | er... |
| school:: | for |
| surveys:: | er... |
| parents:: | er... |
| cars:: | for!!! |
| killing:: | against |
| britney spears:: | er haha lemme laugh first. for. |
| coffee:: | for!! |
| pants:: | FOR |
| WOULD YOU EVER |
| Sky dive?:: | no |
| Play strip poker?:: | no |
| Run away?:: | yeah |
| Curse at a teacher?:: | no |
| Not take a shower for a week?:: | no!! |
| Ask someone out?:: | yeah ges so |
| Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: | er..maybe |
| Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: | yeah |
| Go scuba diving?:: | no |
| Write a book?:: | yeah i wanna |
| Become a rockstar?:: | yeah! |
| Have casual sex?:: | yeah... |
| LAST QUESTIONS |
| What shampoo do you use?:: | palmolive |
| Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: | yesterday i think |
| What kind of computer do you have?:: | laptop |
| What grade are you in?:: | second year college |
| Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: | yeah |
| Or just make out?:: | make out... |
| How many posters do you have in your room?:: | none |
| How many cds do you have?:: | many |
| What time is it now?:: | 4:05 pm |
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the pink sky i saw last night
funny when you have quite a few blogs and you don't know where to update...haha! yeah i might be trimming them down to two or three again. just to clear up the mess. i'm thinking about deleting my poetry blog coz people rarely visit. Broken will also be deleted...*thinking of it...* and i think i know how i'm gonna recreate my dj so..hang in there for that. lol. i'm gonna start working on my dj at the end of this week...any color/theme suggestions? post them up at the tagboard.. :)
weeh i'm excited na..i mean, to renovate my blog...i think sheena is rubbing off on me...changing layouts and everything...:)
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time is so going slow today... as in likeone second may as well be one minute...damn...
this sunday i'm gonna start the Church involvement shit. yak!! wala lang. ayun. sinsabi ko lng.
standing on the edge
yeah i've been updating my dj again for some weird reason i have no idea what it is. gawsh... anyways, today was unpretty. lots of stuff going on...lots of not so nice stuff going on.
i do not want to elaborate. go to my other blog for the details.
*falls asleep on the laptop AGAIN*
[edit] you know why i'm pissed? coz we never were close friends like you claim us to be.
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph, I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
‘Cause I’m broken when I’m lonesome
And I don’t feel light when you’re gone away
~seether & amy lee
and i know i can't be mad at you forever coz one day i'll have to forgive you, one day i have to find my freedom and one day everything will be alright.
i can't steal your freedom. it's all yours. enjoy it while it lasts.
i fucking hate myself for feeling this way. i hate myself for ruining it all. I HATE MYSELF!!!
tinted glass
updating my butterfly garden. have no idea why.
coz we're like tinted glass
you can't see through
all the things i've kept inside
up to this time
no one was there
and i've kept me waiting
for a second chance
that never came.
i am not giving up on solving Ross' mystery. i've gotten two out of five already now where the hell is the other three?! gawd i was expecting one in the survivor webpage but there wasn't. either that or i didn't look hard enough. gawd. this is challenging. at least it's keeping me awake until my next class which is an hour or so from now. gotta find more clues! see yah!
found three as of 1:55 pm july 6, 2004. go me!!
reflections on mirror glass.
i updated my dj just now. i was in the mood to reflect on something i dug up in my email..those stuff that were forwarded in the groups. oh well. go up to the butterfly garden to check it out. *links*
[or if you're just plain lost,
here.]
so there. today was fine...i only had one subject...i forgot i had no manacon today so all i had was a quiz in anmath which i hope i get a high grade in. :)
er..i don't wanna attend relstwo tomorrow. i'm just soooo down. i don't wanna see noelle or cholo. shit. *how blunt can i get? well fuck off this is my blog.*
there's a compro exam tomorrow which means another late night in school dammit.
er..i think i should be writing the rest of this in my angst blog. kidding. it's somewhere there...
It's taken much too long
To get it right
Would it be so wrong
To maybe find someone
A miracle
And all you really need
Is everything you could never be
And so you'd give it all
For a miracle
But what you miss is love
In everything below and up above
And could she bring it all
A miracle
~miracle, vertical horizon
*falls asleep on the laptop*
would you catch me if i fall out of what i fell in?
yeah the song is playing... *bliss* hehe..i've just finished (well not really finished) studying for anmath. and i didn't notice the time...it's already 11:38...i'm getting sleepy already...wait lemme put out the lights here...they're getting to my eyes, it hurts. there.
well anyway, i'm updating Broken (my angst blog) so...dun nalang. sa mga nakakaalam. meron nga ba? hehe...sorry bangag. inaantok na ko e. see yah! wish me luck on my anmath quiz! i damn need it!
you are still the light i find under water. the sea when the sun sets, the music the silence sets in.
home alone for the morning
yeah i have the house all to myself right now. it's kinda too quiet. oh well. anyways, i feel a lot better than i did last night (you have no friggin idea). yeah and right now i'm waiting for...them to arrive. wah! i want a phone! i'm going mad!! hehe..that's what i think of when i'm like totally bored. anyways, there's an anmath quiz tomorrow plus a graded recitation in manacon. grr...then compro2 dept exam on tuesday, maccoms dept exam on thursday. basically that's it for my midterm week. oh yeah plus the bataan trip on saturday. gawd.
hehe i'm browsing nokia'sn website again and there's 3 phones i'm considering... 6220, 6225 and 6230. basically there's a slight difference between the three but they're all good. :)
anyways, wah! i'm all alone here! nakakabato. hm. mamaya magaaral na ko. i'm sending Ross a copy of Evanescence's new video. hehe. lovely. anyways, yun ayan andito na cla. see yah later!
moving on
apparently someone made their way into raindrops through my borrowed heaven so i'm now moving my so-called angst blog somewhere esle. somewhere no one could find it. i hope. :)
today went quite well. rotc was boring as usual (for the first time i didn't feel like sleeping) and well, it was all good. we're going to bataan next week so, i'm glad that it won't be on my birthday. :) actaully next week is dianne's birthday. she's a friend of mine from the platoon. anyways, er! i am so hooked on seether's new song! what's cool is that it was the last song i heard/saw on mtv this morning while on the bus going to school. :) yipee indeed. i so wanna get my hands on that cd/song. hehehe.
so there. we, rex kent and i, had lunch at mcdonalds...i am currently broke thanks to val and ross who borrowed money form me. no prob with that though. it's all good.
wah! i want a cellphone like right now!! i'm thinking of getting a Nokia 6610i..it's got a radio and a camera but i'm thinking since it's a small phone, the quality of the pictures taken by the camera might not be good. however if i get a 3660, it's kinda big but the camera is nice and clear..plus i think there's an mp3 player too. so i still don't know which to get. i guess it'll have to depend on the price. oh well. *browses nokia's website*
i saw evanescence's new video, everybody's fool online and i'll have to say that it can compete with my immortal. it was just amazing. gawd and amy lee was just sooo damn pretty! i have a crush on her! :) and man that guy seether has got one hot rockin chick there. i can't believe he's amy lee's boyfriend!! er! hehe..
anyways, i got a 53 over 75 in our manacon dept exam. gawd and i thought i could make it to a 4.0 or something. er. but then there's still the second part of the test which wasn't returned to us yet. there's twenty five points more and if i get all of that i still have a chance of getting a higher grade. i think.
so there. i'm getting kind of sleepy now so...i guess i'll see you tomorrow. er! anmath quiz on monday! yelp!
[edit] i recreated my poetry blog/gallery. so..yeah it's up and running now. :)
staring at the moon
hehe wala lang. ang lufet. i took pictures of myself kanina and they're soo cute..oo conceited. :) la lng. astig e. yun nga lang nasa cam pa ni kris...ayun...email nlng daw nya sakin. ewan ko kng kelan. haha parinig e. :)
ang ganda ng buwan. kagabi pa ko nakikipagtitigan sa kanya, nagbabakasakaling masagot niya mga tanong ko. la lng. parang..yung buwan umiyak...there's something sad about the moon right now...
la lng. here's a song i found on someone else's blog...i like the lyrics. astig.
"On Love, In Sadness" - Jason Mraz
Oh love it's a brittle madness, I sing about it in all my sadness
It's not falsified to say that I found god so inevitably well,
It still exists pale and fine. I can't dismiss
And I won't resist and if I die well at least I tried
And we just lay awake in lust and rust in the rain
And pour over everything we say we trust
It happened again, I listened in thru hallways and thin doors
Where the rivers unwind, rust and in the rain endure.
The rust and the rain are sins
And I'm in like Flynn again
So go on place your order now cause some other time is right around the clock
You can stand in line. it finally begins just around the clock
You can have your pick if your stomach is sick whether you eat or not
And there is just one thing that I almost forgot
And we just lay awake in lust and rust in the rain
And pour over everything we say we trust
It happened again, I listened in thru hallways and thin doors
Where the rivers unwind, rust and in the rain so easy
These are the comforts that be
You see well I'm feeling lucky oh well, maybe that's just me
You should be proud of me oh hell if you could only see
That we're gonna grow on up to be, ah yes
We are thick as thieves
Oh love it's a brittle madness, I sing about it in all my sadness
It's not falsified to say that I found god
Inevitably, well it still exists pale and fine I can't dismiss
And I won't resist and if I die well at least I tried
And we just lay awake in lust and rust in the rain
And pour over everything we say we trust
It happened again, I listened in thru hallways and thin doors
Where the rivers unwind and the rust and the rain endure
(the rust and the rain endure. I'm sure.)
I am insofar to know the measure of love isn't loss
Love will never ever be insofar to know the measure of love isn't loss
Love will never ever be lost on me.
Love will never ever be lost on me.
words don't come easily
i just wrote a poem. :) it's posted in my poetry blog. hehe..la lng proud ako. ayun. inaantok na ko. will sleep in a while. july 1 na. ano ba yan.
i've been thinking of what to give him for his birthday. i have no friggin idea. gawd.
lavender: i meant na..prng now..kahit positive mejo naiinis prn ako sa kanya..
lavender: and malamang kase i havent forgiven him pa db...pero so far ok nmn e....i think....
unpretty: it doesnt have to happen all at once.
unpretty: you're taking your time and thats great
unpretty: what does
unpretty: keep it sweet
unpretty: mean?
lavender: san mo nakita?
lavender: sa blog ko?
unpretty: no.
unpretty: you said it, before.
unpretty: sabi mo sabi ni krystle.
lavender: yah. sabi nya yan. keep it sweet and innocent.
lavender: kahit wala na kaming bahid ng innocence
lavender: it means
unpretty: oh.
unpretty: well val, i've never seen you handle things like this easily
lavender: na..prang hayaan ko lang na maging friends kami ulet. let things go back to normal, the way it was before all the things that happened. then maybe i could forgive him when i see the good in him again..dun papasok ung sinabi ni ross na be careful. kase when everytrhing goes back to us being frinds...there should be precaution na on my side..kase alam ko na kng anong pwede mangyare
unpretty: with such grace.
lavender: naks thanks...
unpretty: ross is right, plus, seeing good in him has limitations too.
lavender: like?
unpretty: seeing good in him. see the good side of him pero you dont have to look beyond the superficial kasi, you might fall.
unpretty: again.
lavender: yes yes. yun nga e. before i misinterpreted what i saw. now i know na whats the meaning of whatever good i see in him.
unpretty: great!
lavender: i have to see him again as an individual, as a friend. as a fellow la sallian.
lavender: and take into consideration
lavender: na tao din shang nagkakamali
lavender: at nasasaktan
unpretty: nakanam!!! as a fellow lasallian!
unpretty: haha.
lavender: at higit sa lahat..
lavender: marunong magmalasakit.
unpretty: tao din syang nagkakamali. tama. marunong magmalasakit, tama.
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an excerpt from the conversation unpretty and i had just a while ago. makes sense, doesn't it? :)
motivation proclamation
the compro2 dept exam was moved to tuesday next week instead of tonight..i don't know if i'm gonna ba happy about it or not. hah! oh wells, today is kind of turning out to be nice. *holds her breath--maccoms mamaya* i haven't studied for maccoms yet--not that there's anything going on. it's just that..wala lang. i have this weird feeling about the subject and i don't wanna think about it. i'm gonna get my manacon dept exam results later and i'm really wishing for a high grade. :)
how boring..there's nothing alse to say. the anmath1 quiz is gonna be on monday. lecheng limits yan. haha..wala lang. ayun i've got an hour pa before class. i'm gonna try to fix the lok of my blogs again. hehe. see yah mamaya!
[EDIT] ang dami ditong frosh na cute sa lab..hehe..and i saw michael again...dumaan sa corridor. hehe.
oh yeah and here's the song that's playing in my head right now...i really like this one..it's an old song by good charlotte. :)
The Motivation Proclamation
by Good Charlotte
Spend your lazy
Endless crazy days
Inside my head,
You're so selfish
You're not the only one
Who thinks he's dead,
I'm paid to smile
Now I'm on trial for
What you think I said
'Cause I never said that
Everything would be OK
And I never said that
We would live
To see another day
Motivate me,
I wanna get myself
Out of this bed,
Captivate me,
I want good thoughts
Inside of my head,
When I fall down
Would you come around and
Pick me right up off the ground?
I'm un-artistic, unrealistic
You say I'm selfish and absurd
You try to change me
You try to save
You say I'm gonna learn
I'm so blind
I'm out of time
You're so unkind sometimes
I never lied
I never lied
'Cause everything it'll be OK
You know we're gonna live
To see another day,
Yeah, yeah
Motivate me yeah
Motivate me yeah
